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Feeling a bit disconnected…
a week ago
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…from furry at the moment
I‘m not sure if it‘s just a down or if there‘s something changing in me in general. I‘ve noticed how i’ve become slower and slower with art and i‘m just not as motivated as i used to be a while ago. It‘s always just short periods of boost and ideas and then i‘m kinda worn out again.
Maybe it‘s because my job has been increasingly exhausting as the personell situation has been especially harsh this year. Or it‘s because my life goals are starting to shift (thinking more and more about starting my own family and all). Maybe because art isn‘t my only hobby anymore. Maybe because i‘m not really truly belonging anywhere in the furry space, which i learned to be ok with, i‘m free but i also don‘t have no chains holding me back.
Maybe it‘s the season or just a combination of all these things.
I kinda wish i could suit, dance and have fun being a silly furry creature like i did last time in september but there isn‘t really a nearby event i know of. Maybe an evening like that could connect me back
Idk what i‘ll do with commissions next year tbh. Maybe i‘ll limit them to a minimal amount or just offer ych in the future. Right now it kinda doesn‘t give me the same good feelings as they used to and realising and accepting this is so hard… i worked so hard to be where i am right now and i‘ve gained so many wonderful friends and supporters and it‘s such an amazing feeling to know i‘d still have a second income option in case anything is happening to my main job - in the current times nothing unusual.
But i also feel like it‘s so unfair to my wonderful clients to not pour all my passion into their projects … i don‘t want to have their money if i can‘t give 100% back. I don‘t want to become one of these artist who start to become lazy or impersonal (is that a word) like a brand or company. i‘m lucky enough i don‘t need to too.
It‘s conflicting feelings inside me and maybe this will become stupid in a few weeks or months and all i needed was a break and a new clear vision of what i truly want and expect of myself in the community
Phew..
I‘m not sure if it‘s just a down or if there‘s something changing in me in general. I‘ve noticed how i’ve become slower and slower with art and i‘m just not as motivated as i used to be a while ago. It‘s always just short periods of boost and ideas and then i‘m kinda worn out again.
Maybe it‘s because my job has been increasingly exhausting as the personell situation has been especially harsh this year. Or it‘s because my life goals are starting to shift (thinking more and more about starting my own family and all). Maybe because art isn‘t my only hobby anymore. Maybe because i‘m not really truly belonging anywhere in the furry space, which i learned to be ok with, i‘m free but i also don‘t have no chains holding me back.
Maybe it‘s the season or just a combination of all these things.
I kinda wish i could suit, dance and have fun being a silly furry creature like i did last time in september but there isn‘t really a nearby event i know of. Maybe an evening like that could connect me back
Idk what i‘ll do with commissions next year tbh. Maybe i‘ll limit them to a minimal amount or just offer ych in the future. Right now it kinda doesn‘t give me the same good feelings as they used to and realising and accepting this is so hard… i worked so hard to be where i am right now and i‘ve gained so many wonderful friends and supporters and it‘s such an amazing feeling to know i‘d still have a second income option in case anything is happening to my main job - in the current times nothing unusual.
But i also feel like it‘s so unfair to my wonderful clients to not pour all my passion into their projects … i don‘t want to have their money if i can‘t give 100% back. I don‘t want to become one of these artist who start to become lazy or impersonal (is that a word) like a brand or company. i‘m lucky enough i don‘t need to too.
It‘s conflicting feelings inside me and maybe this will become stupid in a few weeks or months and all i needed was a break and a new clear vision of what i truly want and expect of myself in the community
Phew..
fychcgjdkh
~fychcgjdkh
i feel the disconnect with being a furry, the rest i have no say in
mjoelke
~mjoelke
OP
What is it, that makes you feel the disconnect to furry for you? For me it‘s so intervened with art…
fychcgjdkh
~fychcgjdkh
I don't even really know, just don't feel like i belong much now :<
