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Entering the 40s...
4 months ago
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Hello everyone! Sit down and listen up to what the kindest silver dragon has to say... Another year has passed and... this is it! I've finally reached the 40s! Man, I feel old...
In other news, things have been alright, but I still need to kick my butt for improvements. Not everything is great. Got some issues at my job with my erratic sleep schedule and the overall annoyance of some imposed limitations to the point where I fell into depression during summer. I've been trying to seek for help: saw a psychiatrist on one side, tried a sleep test on another, got different anti-depressants from my doctor, saw a mental health specialist, went to a clinic about my sexual situation, and I'm currently followed by a psychologist from an institution who are specialized in autism... and yet, still, I don't fully feel like I have a wonderful life. Oh, I know there's worse, WAAAY worse, but in my situation, I just... feel jammed in my head. I can't take decisions, I get anxious, I don't know where to go and what to do. I feel lost.
Yeah, I know, I think I'm still repeating myself. My apologies.
Here's the good stuff now. After some more time spent in VRChat, I've tried to turn into a kobold since I've noticed how my voice and reactions triggered some positive results. And I feel more like that it suits me better. And as such, I'm considering to change to a kobold, starting anew with a different character, new arts and everything. I may even prefer to have a kobold fursuit, which is not so different than a dragon. However, I still have to think how I am gonna design it.
For next year, I wanna try to step into the Europe territory and attend Eurofurence if everything is okay. We'll see. I will also attend Furnal Equinox again (if we get a room).
I think that's pretty much it. Hopefully, things will get better. Love you all.
In other news, things have been alright, but I still need to kick my butt for improvements. Not everything is great. Got some issues at my job with my erratic sleep schedule and the overall annoyance of some imposed limitations to the point where I fell into depression during summer. I've been trying to seek for help: saw a psychiatrist on one side, tried a sleep test on another, got different anti-depressants from my doctor, saw a mental health specialist, went to a clinic about my sexual situation, and I'm currently followed by a psychologist from an institution who are specialized in autism... and yet, still, I don't fully feel like I have a wonderful life. Oh, I know there's worse, WAAAY worse, but in my situation, I just... feel jammed in my head. I can't take decisions, I get anxious, I don't know where to go and what to do. I feel lost.
Yeah, I know, I think I'm still repeating myself. My apologies.
Here's the good stuff now. After some more time spent in VRChat, I've tried to turn into a kobold since I've noticed how my voice and reactions triggered some positive results. And I feel more like that it suits me better. And as such, I'm considering to change to a kobold, starting anew with a different character, new arts and everything. I may even prefer to have a kobold fursuit, which is not so different than a dragon. However, I still have to think how I am gonna design it.
For next year, I wanna try to step into the Europe territory and attend Eurofurence if everything is okay. We'll see. I will also attend Furnal Equinox again (if we get a room).
I think that's pretty much it. Hopefully, things will get better. Love you all.
Keep happy though-starting today as it is your birthday. Hope it's a good one!
I may not be a good help (since I'm in depression as well) but I believe in you!
I'm glad you found joy as a kobold ^^