Hello! I’m writing this because I am not going to post any visual art for a while and because I made allusions to killing myself in the description of my last post it would be irresponsible to just disappear after that.

What’s actually happened is that I hit probably my lowest point in my life so far and large parts of me broke. My taste in images is just completely absent right now so I have no desire to make or seek out good images. Basically the only things remaining that I enjoy are music and making jokes.

The fact that I could never properly play any real instrument has always frustrated me, to the point of deep gnawing self-disgust. So I’m going to learn to play piano and maybe the basics of guitar or bass. Ideally I will write a couple of songs without midi or anything. Looking into saving money for a four track. Then I will come back here. At the very least I will learn to play the majority of this one song I like before I come back. By then hopefully my image-taste will have returned.
Anhedonically yours,
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P.S. If you’re on drugs to make you not want to kill yourself, don’t start consuming substances that will completely fuck up those original drugs. You will want to kill yourself.

P.P.S. There is a chance I won’t follow any of my advice and I will just get even more horrible and etc. So maybe that will happen. Iunno.