When i was 17, my past self wanted to try to draw so that he'd be able to draw stuff for unknown reasons, probably just to draw or something, its unfortunate that i strayed from the goal, arts that were suppose to be attempted to draw haven't been attempted due to losing the feeling of wanting to try, and with negativity in the air of my time on the internet, really further fuels the feeling of not wanting to do it, i have my own self to blame for that, but other things that weren't my fault also play a factor as well, why my 20 year old ass hasn't tried drawing anything, both this journal and the other tells.