I remember our first interaction was you answering my question about designing anthros. I remember our talks about Vie and Never and watching the first seasons of GoT. I remember being so scared of my own identity and you and Nux accepting me so quickly I instantly recognized how silly my fear was. I remember how fun it was to talk about Baxx and Anatole and all of our worlds. I remember Shrek 2 and Brave Little Toaster and Lily Allen and Better than Ezra and coming home from my shitty job at Walmart on lunch break to hang out and joke about memes at 3 in the morning while eating a sad little peanut butter sandwich. I remember Skype and Qq and how we didn't talk for a while after moving to Discord, and I remember how good and fulfilling it felt to re-establish that connection.

You're one of the most selfless and giving and patient and funny people I know, and you don't deserve a shred of this heartache. But I hope you remember even if you can't feel it in the moment, there's always joy in the past and in the future.

I really, really appreciate this. I haven't been feeling like myself ... I still don't, to be honest. But you saying this has helped me remember. If I can wear the mask a little longer so I can be ok again, and keep being a part of those good memories and the new ones to come, then I will. I've got to find my happiness again.

I'm sorry to cause worry and hurt and to put you--and everyone--in this position of being stuck on the sidelines to an ongoing disaster. I just hope I can get back on the tracks properly someday.

I'm happy it helped, even if just a bit. It's scary being so deep in the hole, but we're all here to help you out for as long as it takes. Daylight is never as far as it looks.

There is no singular answer to why we should keep on. We spend our whole lives trying to fine the one that works for us. Some never do. If there's one thing to know, it's that ther others around you want nothing more than for you to find yours. We want to see you succeed and rise like the star we know you are. Good luck. We got your back.

Thank you, very much. I dont know if I can pull myself back up or not, but I have to at least keep trying. If not for me than for the people who I want to make proud

I guess that's what it is for all of us, really. Just continuing to try

Just like pawn said, I remember everything, hun. I remember all the wonderful times with watching shows together with the whole group, talking late into the night about ideas for vie and characters and about life, us being there for each other when things were hard. I remember those late nights spent playing sleepily with one of us playing games while the other watched, and even though it was mostly quiet, it was peaceful and felt right.

Pawn is completely right about how wonderful you are, how selfless, giving, patient, and amusing you are. I've thought you're an amazing person for such a long time, and that has never changed. You're my most important friend, the most important person in my entire life. The future always has brightness, and It'll always be there for you. I love you with all of my heart, and I know we all do too. You're such a wonderful part of our lives, and you deserve happiness, deserve to be able to follow your dreams again.

I can vividly recall many of the projects that we've worked on together. The many hours spent brainstorming and kitbashing until we found a design that worked just right. The patience, care, and determination about it all. It's a level of thoroughness about it that made me respect you immensely.
Couple that with the conversations that we've had during down periods to help bolster things back up when either things were down, or things needed a kick forward.

You've been taking time to rebuild yourself, clawing back your mental state bit by bit, and I'm still here to support you through that process. I can't tell you what to fight for, that's something that you find on your own, but the things that you've built for yourself with your patience, selflessness, and care really speak for themselves. You've found quite a few friends for yourself that will be there for you. You found someone who truly and utterly cares deeply about you, and we're all supportive in wanting to help you on that journey.

It's going to take time to really rebuild that position where you are comfortable with yourself again, I know, I'm walking that path also. But when you do, and I believe in you strongly enough to say that it will be a when, you'll be much stronger for it. I fervently believe in you. I know you'll find your happiness, passion, and pursuits once more, and I believe in the strength you can find to keep searching. You deserve that strength to keep pushing.