Hey again. Im sorry for the big depression explosion, here and everywhere. To be truthful... I'm in a bad place. One I don't know if I can get out of. Normally I try to stay optimistic about this sort of thing, but I think I've finally run out of positivity. Or at least, run out of the ability to fake it like I used to.

I'm going to take it slow. Try to unplug, rebuild, find my way again. I've tried a few times, a few ways, and never really got it to stick. But I gotta keep trying... I'm starting volunteer work again. I'm going to stick to my walking regimen. I'm going to start again. Even if it's small and I'm still not all here, even if I question whether or not I even deserve to admit that I'm in a bad place... Even if I still wake up and wonder what for.

I'm sorry to worry folks. I wish I could promise anything and see it through. But for right now, I will keep trying.