I'm tired of how it seems I'm making progress with my offline real life only to have reality bitchslap me back , in February alone I go to build some electronic stuff , got my soldering iron & watched YouTube videos on electronics to update my knowledge , schematic drawn of how & then I go to get my old electronics tool box & the solder , resistors , capacitors & everything ain't inside -- replaced with other stuff

Then at the library I try looking up free online degrees ( academic degree ) I find ones about writing short stories , sentence structure & communication But when I click on them the link sends me to courses of stuff I didn't want like computer programming with A.I. & not free it's thousands for programs that were 6 weeks or less



Sometimes I wonder why even bother to try