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Confessions (on alcohol, fat, sexuality, being boring)
15 years ago
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Even the nicest of guys have some nasty within' 'em
You don't have to be backlit to be the villain
Whether it's greed, lust or plain vindictiveness
There's a level of malevolence inside of all of us
I have a lot to get off my chest you know, and tonight seems a fine time to do it, what with having so little to do.
Alcohol consumption
A lot of you (people who attended Birthdaycon or Hirocon... or both) will know that I'm pretty much tee-total on drinking alcohol. I will not drink it, no matter how you wish to bribe or blackmail me. Frankly, having it constantly forced upon me is quite aggravating and at times I've had to restrain myself from slapping you people around when you're shoving cider or whatnot in my face.
I do not drink alcohol for a number of reasons, including but not limited to:
* Lack of tolerance: Eastern Asians genetically have very little tolerance to alcoholic beverages - thus why there's such a stereotype as the drunken Japanese businessman - it doesn't take a lot to get plastered.
* More lack of tolerance: I can only think of two people in my entire extended family who I know drinks alcohol - out of parents, grandparents and some several dozen aunts, uncles and cousins - only two drink alcohol, and not even on a regular basis.
* It does horrible things: I have friends who drink, some excessively. I need not go any further than them stumbling around shouting "I'M NOT DRUNK!" at people, which annoys me extremely.
* I'm mentally insane: I only have a tedious hold on my sanity at the best of times, destroy my inhibitions and I'll probably kill/assault someone or have a mental breakdown. Easily.
Sexuality
For quite a while I've identified myself as gay, before that I said bisexual. In reality, I identify myself as asexual. While it is true that I find men more physically attractive than women, I have never at any point in my life ever desired to have sexual relations with neither man nor woman.
Despite being a bit of a chubby chaser, a person's weight does not play any part in deciding how much I am attracted to them - I base attractiveness solely on personality.
The idea of sexual relations doesn't interest or arouse me at all. That's pretty much the end of that.
Weight gain
This one is the reason why I posted this journal here and not elsewhere - as all my other blogs are watched by people I know in real life, and who are unaware of this little facet of my person.
While it seems I have long been an advocate of gaining weight - for both myself and for others - and a reasonable weight is something I do find attractive, however I have never been sure of gaining weight myself.
Like my rejection of drinking alcohol, the base of thought behind this is spread across many points:
* Health issues: This is not just my complete and utter lack of exercise, but hereditary illness also. My mother's side of the family has a history of heart disease and depression, my father's side in skin conditions and degenerative mental illness. This is not a good base to work off. At age 18, I already have a cholesterol level significantly higher than the recommended and have respiratory and skin issues that will probably cause issues for the rest of my days.
* I'm two-faced: I often support people to grow as big as they can and want to, no matter what fantastical limit they have. In truth, I only find people up to about 240 pounds in any way attractive, over that and I start finding it a little off-putting.
* I'm a reluctant gainer: I am slowly and steadily gaining weight, although I constantly wonder whether I should. Unlike some people, I do not take an active role in trying to put on weight, I just eat when I'm hungry and let that be that. I've never really dedicated any time to actually trying, except for the occasional Wednesday banquet.
Not to say I don't find fatness attractive - I do - but there are limits to it, and I often think that I should probably lose a lot of weight, if only to save myself, which I guess would no longer make me a gainer.
On being boring
I constantly say I'm a boring person and that's not going to change in this journal.
I continually make these claims for a number of factors, which again will be displayed in a list form:
* I don't play games: This is a hurdle that is consistent both inside the fandom and out, I don't "do" computer games. I'm not good at them, I don't understand them, and I don't always find them interesting. I much rather read an encyclopaedia than play games, and I often do. I've been trying to get more into playing games lately (I played Left4Dead for the first time ever on Saturday), but I'm still utterly hopeless at such stuff.
* I have very few interests: Politics. Website design. After that it's pretty much diddly squat from me. These two things probably make up over 90% of everything I do or discuss.
* I cannot hold a conversation: As with my interests, most of my long-lasting conversations are either roleplay, or related to politics or web design. Any other type of conversation tends to die off in under 10 minutes.
* People do say I'm boring: It's not just me saying it, I have legitimately had people (and not just randomers, people I've known for significant periods of time) tell me that I'm not an easy person to talk to, as discussion topics just don't appear.
I think that's enough for now...
Alcohol consumption
A lot of you (people who attended Birthdaycon or Hirocon... or both) will know that I'm pretty much tee-total on drinking alcohol. I will not drink it, no matter how you wish to bribe or blackmail me. Frankly, having it constantly forced upon me is quite aggravating and at times I've had to restrain myself from slapping you people around when you're shoving cider or whatnot in my face.
I do not drink alcohol for a number of reasons, including but not limited to:
* Lack of tolerance: Eastern Asians genetically have very little tolerance to alcoholic beverages - thus why there's such a stereotype as the drunken Japanese businessman - it doesn't take a lot to get plastered.
* More lack of tolerance: I can only think of two people in my entire extended family who I know drinks alcohol - out of parents, grandparents and some several dozen aunts, uncles and cousins - only two drink alcohol, and not even on a regular basis.
* It does horrible things: I have friends who drink, some excessively. I need not go any further than them stumbling around shouting "I'M NOT DRUNK!" at people, which annoys me extremely.
* I'm mentally insane: I only have a tedious hold on my sanity at the best of times, destroy my inhibitions and I'll probably kill/assault someone or have a mental breakdown. Easily.
Sexuality
For quite a while I've identified myself as gay, before that I said bisexual. In reality, I identify myself as asexual. While it is true that I find men more physically attractive than women, I have never at any point in my life ever desired to have sexual relations with neither man nor woman.
Despite being a bit of a chubby chaser, a person's weight does not play any part in deciding how much I am attracted to them - I base attractiveness solely on personality.
The idea of sexual relations doesn't interest or arouse me at all. That's pretty much the end of that.
Weight gain
This one is the reason why I posted this journal here and not elsewhere - as all my other blogs are watched by people I know in real life, and who are unaware of this little facet of my person.
While it seems I have long been an advocate of gaining weight - for both myself and for others - and a reasonable weight is something I do find attractive, however I have never been sure of gaining weight myself.
Like my rejection of drinking alcohol, the base of thought behind this is spread across many points:
* Health issues: This is not just my complete and utter lack of exercise, but hereditary illness also. My mother's side of the family has a history of heart disease and depression, my father's side in skin conditions and degenerative mental illness. This is not a good base to work off. At age 18, I already have a cholesterol level significantly higher than the recommended and have respiratory and skin issues that will probably cause issues for the rest of my days.
* I'm two-faced: I often support people to grow as big as they can and want to, no matter what fantastical limit they have. In truth, I only find people up to about 240 pounds in any way attractive, over that and I start finding it a little off-putting.
* I'm a reluctant gainer: I am slowly and steadily gaining weight, although I constantly wonder whether I should. Unlike some people, I do not take an active role in trying to put on weight, I just eat when I'm hungry and let that be that. I've never really dedicated any time to actually trying, except for the occasional Wednesday banquet.
Not to say I don't find fatness attractive - I do - but there are limits to it, and I often think that I should probably lose a lot of weight, if only to save myself, which I guess would no longer make me a gainer.
On being boring
I constantly say I'm a boring person and that's not going to change in this journal.
I continually make these claims for a number of factors, which again will be displayed in a list form:
* I don't play games: This is a hurdle that is consistent both inside the fandom and out, I don't "do" computer games. I'm not good at them, I don't understand them, and I don't always find them interesting. I much rather read an encyclopaedia than play games, and I often do. I've been trying to get more into playing games lately (I played Left4Dead for the first time ever on Saturday), but I'm still utterly hopeless at such stuff.
* I have very few interests: Politics. Website design. After that it's pretty much diddly squat from me. These two things probably make up over 90% of everything I do or discuss.
* I cannot hold a conversation: As with my interests, most of my long-lasting conversations are either roleplay, or related to politics or web design. Any other type of conversation tends to die off in under 10 minutes.
* People do say I'm boring: It's not just me saying it, I have legitimately had people (and not just randomers, people I've known for significant periods of time) tell me that I'm not an easy person to talk to, as discussion topics just don't appear.
I think that's enough for now...
As for sexuality- of course. You just have a penis fetish and a disdain for sexual interaction with women. It's cool, man.
jaykayilurlybrah
And I can say, even if you think you're boring I know I enjoy talking with ya ;D
Boring? I think not, I found that journal fascinating. Politics takes a HELL of a lot to think about. People who play computer games too much and have dreams about their cousins naked may consider you boring. I consider that you can string a sentence coherantly, and better, making a journal interesting.
I think I'm with you on sexuality though. 19 and I haven't really had the desire to go to bed with anyone, man or woman. Personally I'm of the belief that furry is a stage, and we grow out of it when we grow up.
Anyway, keep writing and I'll keep reading. - Bookmarked -