been gone all weekend, doing what not, bbq's and swimming in lakes staying at friends houses and what not.

I have for the last 2 days need some time to my self to think. I though I was better but then some one asked me the question I wish I had an answer to and I went back into a shit hole.

not sure if two people I trust are really my friends at all and maybe that I should just stop talking to them entirely.

wish I could find a normal person, that kinda needs some one I found out the kinda people I like and its so I can feel needed sadly.

thinking hard thinking long. mite go back to a psychologist or actually start taking what I should be taking atm so these kinda things don't bother me at all.