so I've had a very very very fun last few weeks. the most recent being the most fun.

so found the cause of why my arthritis randomly fucking kicked up. and found out I gots RA, so I got meds for that now to take, then something to help my immune system since is some how fucks that up.

also got an abnormal pap smear and was like shit shit shit shit shit. so more testing there. its nothing to bad, I got pills to take for that too, they need to keep monitoring it. the RA didn't help with this.

and then I feel down the steps at grandpas (pasha's) and like really fucked up my right leg, so both my legs hurt, and its like ow ow ow.

currently making a fur suit, or was last weekend till I like fucked up my leg, had to take some pills for something and they made me sick as fuck. finished making the foot to the suit and fell down the stairs then spend the next day resting. now looking at it I need to like cut something to make it look a little different not sure what, but its like bothering me some how..... idk how but it just is.

little depressed having some boy probs kinda kinda not. don't really want to be alone for thanksgiving and xmas those a big family holidays and this time of the year is very important to me. so idk what to do. I'm a pretty positive person so I can get thru this, just not sure how much longer I can always take the positive rout.

also still going to mff, kinda keep forgetting about it a little bit.
and going to canada to take ix to his bf and get me some more pills.
had the guy who deals with my RA tell me to try to stop taking them. I don't need to stop now, for my arm, or RA but they think I would do better with out them. so I'm thinking about it. just not sure if I want to. when I start seeing and hearing things thats when I plan to stop.