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Shot down and feeling low about it.
15 years ago
I need to get this down and out of my head before I forget it.
I understand that I will never have any real friends and never will. I accep this now.
I accept I more then likely will die alone and un care for...and only people online for a time will wounder what happen to me then forget me like many otheres here. I am no one but ones and zeros on the computer for all of you to see. and many of you will diss agree with this but it's the truth.
I see my online friends...some I fall for get there own mates and leave alone like an old bone...and Im use to that...i been toss aside more then once. don't get me wrong i am happy they found love...but i feel like i turn into a shadow to them and they stop talking to me.
One thing I do and I do it to everyone is I tell them never say you can't do something...to try new things and see how far you can take your self.
Many of you know I have a lot of ideas and I share some with you. Today I share an idea I wanted to do for a bit now...make my frist steampunk outfit. (( http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3814532/ ))
I don't know how to sew, but I want to learn so I make more outfits down the road with out help. I share this idea and was shot down by my stepe mom...the fabric cost alot...and "you don't know how to sew....it's cheeper to buy use clouthes." thats some of the things she said to me...
Belive it or not every time I have ideas she is the one to shoot me down like ducks in hunting season.
And you know what...I give up...I am too tier of feeling like i have glue on my feet when everyone I see can fly.
If you are thinking i am going to take alot of pills or cut myself...don't worry I am not going to end myself...I just ending my ideas and dream...lets face it...no one really care for my work..im just a joke on this site. don't say im not...cuz I know I am not really good and no one really want my work, unless they feel sorry for me...and that happen before...i got jobs cuz people feel sorry for me..and the funny part is the only ones that paid me...was in yugioh cards the one that was going to paid me in money has yet to do so....
I will be here but only as a ghost showing my love for my fav artist...but I will not draw...I will not post any more work...im tire of alot of things...
sorry to west your time....
Faro.
Yes feeling alone bites..*hug back.*