Few months ago I got this dreadful feeling that something horrible and tragic was going to take place this September. I havent been able to shake the feeling. I dont know what will happen. When Kaylie passed, I thought that might have been what I have been dreading. I figured, I just got the month wrong. A few days ago, I got that dread feeling again. More strongly this time. I fear lives will be loss. I think my life will be one of those. I've been having some vivid dreams about my own death. In anycase, I hope I'm wrong, but I havent wrong about these feelings before. I have never felt dread like this, its so strong that at times its put me in to a haze or confused state.

Plus I havent been feeling well since I got sick mid July. I've been having troubles ketching my breath and coughing alot. Even my voise is a little off. I did lose my voise during my illness.

Anyways, I hope I'm wrong about my feeling.