she's home, things did not go as well as hoped. they found a lot more than was expected. it's been a tough last few days but we are all hoping that this will be the last time they have to go in for anything. she will be taking a few week to recover then back to cemo. i wanted to take a sec and thank all my friends who have really been there for me and kinda helped me stay together. dealing with this is not easy, seeing her just make me see myself when i was going though that. truth being told it scares the shit out of me. she's been so much stronger then i was when i had to deal with it. it's taken so long for me to get myself back to something close to what i was, i dont know how in hell i could go though it all again if i had too. but i have friends who love me and a sister who is fighting a war she seems to be winning , for now i feel blessed. thank you all