Lucy is holding on but there giving her a matter of days, the time we have had with her the last two weeks has been hard but a blessing all the same. it's rare to truly know your losing a big part of your life, and be given the time to say good bye and let them know how much they changed you at your core to make you a better person. i have spent time this week rebuilding Bridges with my family, like most, i have my own drama with my sisters and my brothers i love them greatly but i tend to space myself from them, it's never any one thing. it's work or not seeing eye to eye on things in my life with them. it's seems most my life i have felt set aside from them, in some ways i am. but i have started seeing how much i wall myself up. i set with Lucy last night and she asked me to make sure the family stays together, she's worried that we'll fall apart after she's past. i took a long hard look at that today. then took my other sister aside and told her we needed to talk. it's not going to be easy but we are both trying to reopen closed doors, rebuild the ties that bind us as blood and family. it's as my grandfather once said, you cant enjoy the water if you don't dig the well. so this is my standing,

it's said, god never shuts one door without opening another. so i will work at helping make sure that the ties with my sister is the one we are both work to reopen.