FUCK! The browser closed on me and I have to retype EVERYTHING GOD DAMMIT!

So, I was running to burger king this morning to get some breakfast and some one called my name I looked and there was a woman who looked familiar, she walked up to me and said "Oh my God its really you." Then I realized it was the valedictorian of my graduating class. I fucking hate her. Long story short, I had beyond perfect grades in all of my courses, I had over 100% grades and took every possible AP course (even over the summer) so I wouldn't have those crappy 4 years of that entering classes college shit. Like bio, chem, math, language, history. That shit. So I went straight into medical training school right after high school. I wanted to be the valedictorian but I was not in all of the clubs. I had to work 2 jobs to keep food on my family members plates. I had no time for extracurricular school crap, I had school, work, martial arts, music. Thats it. No time for messing around.

So she followed me to burger king all the while telling me how great her life was and how her husband is sooooo successful. How, she is opening her own clothes line thing at a local store. I wanted to vomit all over her expensive outfit and haircut. Then she asked how work was at the Hospital. That I must be some sort of a fucking hero or some shit like that, "saving lives is the best thing in the world to do you must have a lot of fun and must feel really good about yourself." The dumb bitch had no idea what its like, you see all of that drama on TV, well reality is worse. Also its a little too dramatic! I had been working there for a little over a year now. All of us students have to work at an ER for some amount of time, like 2 months, I needed a paying job to support myself because almost all of my kickboxing money goes to my Mom and Sisters. (I have to work this Halloween, I FUCKING HATE WORKING ON MOTHERFUCKING HALLOWEEN!!!!!)

Now, this is going to be some pretty messed up shit here soon, its what I do for a living, and what I will continue to do. If you don't like death of children... Or death in general, this content is not for you. This is what I told her, In a little less detail because I just wanted her to go get the fuck away from me as quick as possible. What I will put here in my JOURNAL will be a little more detailed.

Heres one case.
They wheel in some kid who was trapped in a fire, he got caught under some second floor support beam. He had severe burns to his face, arms, and legs, ok thats generally everywhere. H also had severe crush syndrome to his legs and lower abdomen. He was 14. He was pretty good looking in the medical records chart picture. Now he had burns, bruises, compound fractures, and his muscles were oozing out of cuts in his legs. I gave him first, Fentanyl, that stuff is 100 times more potent then morphine. Then I proceeded to my job. Wasting thousands of dollars of medical equipment to try to save a life. The kid was dead from the start. If he got unlucky and lived, he would have no legs, hands, or hair, and he would have to go to the doctors to get his skin re-plastered once a week. He bled to death half an hour later. The muscles in his legs were not even in his skin anymore the skin down there was burned so badly the crushed muscles just kind of oozed out of them.

And heres why I hate domestic violence and gangs.

A group of teenagers arrived from a gang fight. Blunt force trauma, stab wounds, gunshot wounds, and one person was hit by a car. I receive an 18 year old black male with 2 gunshot wounds. He was still conscious. He asked "Doctor, you gonna patch me up?" I thought no fucking duh I am its my job, and the right thing to do. So I removed the bullets and "Patched him up" The next afternoon he was out. The person who was hit by the car died however. Shortly after arriving he had a seizure due to the severe head trauma. He flung his body around so violently he broke his own neck.

The man whom I saved however. Died the day after he left. More gang violence took his life. They found his body without a head in his garage. (I read this in the paper.) I thought, either someone wanted this guy dead, or he did not learn his lesson the first time.

Now for a drunk driving case. Then after this will be why I hate Halloween.

There was a severe accident involving a drunk driver. A seven year old and her Mother came in the seven year old girl had a broken sternum from the seatbelt. She was also in the front seat, her face was caved in from the airbag. (thats why there is an age/weight requirement for the front seat, that airbag impacts the human body at an average of 180 MPH. To a seven year old, thats brutal. She died in minutes after arrival. Her mother however lived. Of course, the loss of her daughter must have killed her inside. Survivors guilt will do that to a person. She was not my case but I had to assist with the emergency surgery.

Now why I hate Halloween!

A 10 year old was brought in (not by ambulance however) her son was coughing up blood his pupils were way out of wack is what she said.
Some asshole made a homemade candy-bar filled morphine and thumbtacks. The kid had no idea what he was eating he couldn't feel a damn thing The thumbtacks were of no importance, these kind of cases are common and are fixed easily, the morphine however is what killed the kid in the end. There is only so much of one substance a person can take, and that factor is lessened by age and size. The morphine wrecked his liver and kidneys. We thought about pumping a morphine solvent into the bloodstream, but after the morphine was broken down, he wouldn't have been able get all of the solvent and broken down morphine out of his system, and a dialysis machine wouldn't be fast enough. So we watched the kid die. He didn't even know he was dying he was so messed up from the morphine.

But these are worst-case scenarios. They still happen a lot though. These are some of the ones that happened to some my patients. So, I hope your views have changed on the medical field. We do however need more doctors in general. We have a worldwide shortage of people in the medical profusion. Also, when you see some money raising foundation for cancer, or medical research in equipment or medicine PLEASE DONATE! Its a bitch to do my job sometimes, because sometimes the equipment is in use like an MRI machine. Please encourage young people to join or consider joining the medical profession, even if its like dentistry or something like that. Most Emergency Physicians who are inexperienced have do go beyond their training levels because there is a shortage of surgeons. They have to learn right then and there what to do. Its very stressful for them and most of them break down from the pressure, then someone dies.

So yeah, thats how my day has gone so far after submitting some tunes to FA. Pretty shitty huh. Having to explain all of this to some dumb bitch. And to think she said, "talk to you later" to me means she is going to be in town for a long time.
Speaking of visiting, the fact that I have to work Halloween ruined my plans for visiting my Mom and Little Sisters. But, everyone tries not to work Halloween, or Christmas or any holiday for that matter. I can't take off because I usually run a team, and without a leader... Well, lets not go there about the inexperienced people working without some guidance.