things here are going well, other than out growing all of my old shirts and pants and the shirts my ex left, I'm having to buy new ones. it's funny, for as hard as i am working for this new body now that it's really started to show i find myself at a loss. on one side. there's me pushing to eat better and keep up with work and home, then the other side who clings to what i know. seeing change as something odd. like me looking down and seeing a belly not a beer gut mind you, just me holding wight on. that may not seem like much to most but for the few who know me, this is a very big deal. one i have fought for but now that i have it i feel out of place. i go to wear an old shirt, or a pair of my jeans and nothing fits, the shirts wont tuck in or i cant get my pants to zip. everyone keep telling me I'm looking great and how i just need to keep it up. that helps more than some may know. i feel like i have so few on my side and with so much going on with Lucy, it's just been hard to keep things on track. she is doing better recovering. she's not starting cemo for another few weeks and i am so glade, this will give us thanksgiving together without her worrying over getting sick from being around others or someone passing along a cold. other than that, work is running full force and with thanksgiving it will only pick up. i know i have not been online much and some what out of touch, just bear with me and after the 1st of the year I'll be free more to get out and do things. blessed be to you all.