today was one of the suckiest days of my life yeah i know people dont care to listen so if you dont want to then dont... ok well i found this person who made me feel extreemlt special and i felt that i could love him and trust him and i think i cant and yet he tells me he loves me but he also says that it wont work out between us and that realy sucks... i rarely ever cry but today i cries for at least 2 hours and i couldnt help it i realy hate the situation right now and i just want him to be happy so i guess that ill just be friends with him until i can prove that i love him ... i wish that there was a quicker way to show him that i love him but alas i cannot i just hope that there will be a way too when the time comes... if not i will die of sadness since he is the one who proved that i can truely find someone in this world and right now he is the one i want.