I feel so strange atm, all these old feelings creeping back, i could do without it but i think its pitty more than anything.

I should straighten things out in my head, part of me doesnt want to but i really ought to.

I love my bf so much.

Yeah this is one weired rant aint it? I havent really done one before so its hard for me to be open and let it all out. I can only really be open with one or two people. Otherwise i feel stupid.

Sorry for being like this.