Valentines???
17 years ago
Hello..
Hell, i have no valentines.
I dont really give a shit.
I know someone who likes me but i dont want to hurt her because i am unsure still about being bi. So yeah, load of bollocks. I have a lust for men. I still love men but i like girls too. I cant make up my mind and still want the best of both worlds what you cant have.
I dont know if i like men more, i suppose i do, but its hard to find someone who can deal with chaining you up and licking you. Fuck this.
So in short i dont think i am good enough for anyone. I have been cheated on in the past, used, and i know people have just wanted to use me for sex, i never let them have what they want, now i just wanna give up.
I know the girl doesnt wanna treat me that way.. maybe i'm just a sucker for punishment.. i dont know..
well, i wish those who have got a love all the best for valentines, i really do. But for me, there is a nice black abiss.. Only the creatures in my head love me.
I dunno how many people will read this.. but dont think bad of me please.. i'm just hurting still.
I dont really give a shit.
I know someone who likes me but i dont want to hurt her because i am unsure still about being bi. So yeah, load of bollocks. I have a lust for men. I still love men but i like girls too. I cant make up my mind and still want the best of both worlds what you cant have.
I dont know if i like men more, i suppose i do, but its hard to find someone who can deal with chaining you up and licking you. Fuck this.
So in short i dont think i am good enough for anyone. I have been cheated on in the past, used, and i know people have just wanted to use me for sex, i never let them have what they want, now i just wanna give up.
I know the girl doesnt wanna treat me that way.. maybe i'm just a sucker for punishment.. i dont know..
well, i wish those who have got a love all the best for valentines, i really do. But for me, there is a nice black abiss.. Only the creatures in my head love me.
I dunno how many people will read this.. but dont think bad of me please.. i'm just hurting still.
I know how that feels, all the world has the sun shining out of their asses... (lovely image by the way! :D ) and you just feel like MEGAMEH!
If that makes you feel a little better, you are by far not the only person with this sort of issues, I got noone to write a card to (Hey I can eat the chocolate alone! Yum! :D ) and I know others who don´t have anyone either.
Valentines crap, I never understood that holiday... I mean if you love someone, do you need a special day to show it? Via sweets (reminds me of christmas) and fastly rotting flowers? Hmm, sweet image... :/
And don´t say only the creatures in your head love you, you are a wonderful person and you have a family, also friends. Anyone who could not love you is an idiot and shall be resting in pieces.