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15 years ago
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You know I'm really starting to understand why some people leave the fandom. There comes a time when you start to realize that this gig is an empty bag. People don't really care if you're here or not people come and go and furry marches on.
I suppose i am grateful for the few good friends I have made in the fandom (and you know who you are) and despite the fun I've had with those friends, honestly i keep coming to the same conclusion over and over , "Do I really want to keep doing this?". I really don't do it for the money or notoriety. I made a name out side of furry (something a lot of people don't know) and my day job pays me extremely well so it's not like Its giving me anything I haven't already had. When you've had dinner and spent time with people like Don Bluth or Sergio Argonis and have had work published and distributed nationally, meeting a great furry artist or being a GOH at a furry con just doesn't feel that special some times. Please don't misunderstand me I am very grateful to the fandom for what I have accomplished in the furry fandom and I don't want to sound like I'm belittling things I'm simply trying to draw a comparison.
I guess what I'm trying to say is 2011 will be a year to evaluate my involvement in furry to see if this is something I will continue doing. Anthocon I hope will spark a new intreats for me (I hope) but honestly feel like I've done all i want to do in furry. And with the exception of the fun I've had few friends I've made, I just don't find going to cons fun any more. I'm not saying I'm leaving or anything like that I'm just thinking out loud here. All I'm saying is that I'm burned out with furry and I hope I can find a reason to keep doing this in 2011 or there may not be a 2012 for me. I hope I can find that spark, however I suppose that is yet to be seen.
Thanks to those special few canines, mice, bunnies and mustelids who have made my time in the fandom special. You have no idea how I appreciate that so much. You will always have a warm spot in my heart despite my decision *group hug* Thank you.
I suppose i am grateful for the few good friends I have made in the fandom (and you know who you are) and despite the fun I've had with those friends, honestly i keep coming to the same conclusion over and over , "Do I really want to keep doing this?". I really don't do it for the money or notoriety. I made a name out side of furry (something a lot of people don't know) and my day job pays me extremely well so it's not like Its giving me anything I haven't already had. When you've had dinner and spent time with people like Don Bluth or Sergio Argonis and have had work published and distributed nationally, meeting a great furry artist or being a GOH at a furry con just doesn't feel that special some times. Please don't misunderstand me I am very grateful to the fandom for what I have accomplished in the furry fandom and I don't want to sound like I'm belittling things I'm simply trying to draw a comparison.
I guess what I'm trying to say is 2011 will be a year to evaluate my involvement in furry to see if this is something I will continue doing. Anthocon I hope will spark a new intreats for me (I hope) but honestly feel like I've done all i want to do in furry. And with the exception of the fun I've had few friends I've made, I just don't find going to cons fun any more. I'm not saying I'm leaving or anything like that I'm just thinking out loud here. All I'm saying is that I'm burned out with furry and I hope I can find a reason to keep doing this in 2011 or there may not be a 2012 for me. I hope I can find that spark, however I suppose that is yet to be seen.
Thanks to those special few canines, mice, bunnies and mustelids who have made my time in the fandom special. You have no idea how I appreciate that so much. You will always have a warm spot in my heart despite my decision *group hug* Thank you.
