Im breaking until further notice.

I do not wish to leave the house, unless its for work, let alone go anywhere out of the way. I dont wish to have anyone around, i dont particularly feel like allowing any visitors.

I've discovered i get my cruel tendencies and my ability to be that cruel from my mother. What happened bares no importance, and isn't an overly huge factor in this declaration, and neither is Christmas.


To various people i bare the following messages;

- Do not try to fix my problems
- Do not try to talk me around to 'thinking differently/positively'
- Do not assume you are welcome to my door unexpectedly.
- Do not think you know what "is wrong" with me.
- Do not try to give me a 'big dose of reality'

II've had more then my share of these attempts happening lately, and its more the likely doing more damage then it is good.

For now, i just want to stay in my mind.

Thank you.
~Raz.