Something I need to get off my chest...
18 years ago
There's something that's been heavily weighing on my mind, especially so within the last 24 hours. It's something I casually thought of from time to time and occassionally joked about with Grant. I need to tell someone... Just to let off a little pressure, ya know?
Anyway, everytime I get ready to tell someone, I freeze up. I become afraid that people, my friends, will think differently of me. That they won't be comfortable around me anymore. Hnn. I know that most people would say "if they're really your friends, they'll care about you no matter what." But with some things, that's just not true. Because people, including friends, are fickle and judgemental (That's just a generalization, I know that's not always true). Hnn. I want to post this on my myspace account, but I fear that some of my friends will reject me. Hell, I'm afraid some of y'all here might reject me. But I still feel the need to be honest with y'all.
............(Get on with it!)...............
I'm bisexual.
I mean, I've never had any sexual or romantical relations with a women. I am, however, romantically and sexually attracted to both men and women. And, even if I am bi, that does not mean that it's an even 50/50 split between my attraction to the two sexes. It's more of a 15(women)/85(men) split.
It also doesn't mean that I'm any less in love with Grant. Or that I need a woman to be satisfied as well as a man. Or that I'm secretly a lesbian. Or confused/on the fence about my sexuality.
It just means that I can, and have been, attracted to members of both genders. That I know what I like. That I'm a normal person too. That I'm still the same person that y'all knew before this revelation.
I'm bisexual and okay with it. I just hope y'all are too.
Anyway, everytime I get ready to tell someone, I freeze up. I become afraid that people, my friends, will think differently of me. That they won't be comfortable around me anymore. Hnn. I know that most people would say "if they're really your friends, they'll care about you no matter what." But with some things, that's just not true. Because people, including friends, are fickle and judgemental (That's just a generalization, I know that's not always true). Hnn. I want to post this on my myspace account, but I fear that some of my friends will reject me. Hell, I'm afraid some of y'all here might reject me. But I still feel the need to be honest with y'all.
............(Get on with it!)...............
I'm bisexual.
I mean, I've never had any sexual or romantical relations with a women. I am, however, romantically and sexually attracted to both men and women. And, even if I am bi, that does not mean that it's an even 50/50 split between my attraction to the two sexes. It's more of a 15(women)/85(men) split.
It also doesn't mean that I'm any less in love with Grant. Or that I need a woman to be satisfied as well as a man. Or that I'm secretly a lesbian. Or confused/on the fence about my sexuality.
It just means that I can, and have been, attracted to members of both genders. That I know what I like. That I'm a normal person too. That I'm still the same person that y'all knew before this revelation.
I'm bisexual and okay with it. I just hope y'all are too.
I won't decide wether or not to tell my mom until I can find out for sure what her stance is on the topic. She's semi-conservative with most things, but I don't know to what extent when it comes to sexuality.
*hugs*
All fear our bisexual-ness! XD
*HUGS*
I wish I had LESS BOOBAGE I SWEAR its like LOL I KILL UR BACK NOW
God why am I still awake at four in the morning *blinks*
That and insomnia yes
But seriously that junk is goooooooood I couldn't find the other flavors though =<
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-3- I fail. *is stoned*
I like Dr. Enuf. Gotta love pure cane sugar.
Anywhoose, I'm going to bed now.
And yes you better come home to visit T___T
OwO