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Commented Hand-Outs.
15 years ago
First of all, for my resent double shift at work that had me up all night, i have to say a very warm thank you to Sariya for staying up all night and having phone message conversations.
Erm, a few things have been happening, but im not sure which i feel like mentioning and which i don't. A lot of people have been grating my patience and nerves lately and its worrying me because im usually (if anything) passive agressive. Recently, i seem to be feeling particularly rage-struck whenever something like that happens. That's not a good sign, generally. More so for me.
Others have simply had the habit of bringing up bad memories or old thoughts which i had delibrately evicted from my mind a long time ago for my own reasons.
Job is good. Plans have started motion.
My point this day seems to simply be that right now, i hate most people. I don't want to, but it just seems to be going that way, and i can see how, but i literally cannot change it, unless the other person assists too, and usually they just fail.
Im stuck in a social mess, a relationships-based mess and also a mess my mind appears to be either fabricating or bringing to light. Either one it is, i still count it as a mess and i still see it as trouble for me. Most other topics or genres of mess or trouble, i can handle without too much fuss so there is not point in ranting about, or even mentioning them.
Right now i have a forefront point to make.
- If i don't personally tell you about something, or i don't respond enthusiastically or by explaining things to you, then its because it's something i don't want to tell you. Either it is personal, or plainly just none of your business. I figured that is reasonable.
The last thing i would like to say, is unless someone is just playing around, being a little immature for amusement purposes or simply having some fun; Don't be a child. Grow up. Having hissy fits and tantrums and the ever so popular 'i don't care approach of saying 'whatever' and wandering off, like that makes you such a memorable force of wrath, is to me... Purely pathetic.
I believe in discussion, though i know i get emotional. I won't block people on msn, i don't disregard people and walk away and i most certainly never take the 'oh whatever' approach to things.
I understand depression and other emotions and some personal issues can come into consideration during these times and various other points would be valid too, but you need a really worthy excuse to make some actions passable in my mind.
However unflattering, i do regard people and can't help having my opinions, which also means i can't help having my scale of respect. Those i can respect easily, and those it takes more effort to keep it there for and of course-
Extremely rare; the people i have no respect for.
I think im finished ranting now. A little angry still, and still hating a vast expanse of population...
But thats me.
Erm, a few things have been happening, but im not sure which i feel like mentioning and which i don't. A lot of people have been grating my patience and nerves lately and its worrying me because im usually (if anything) passive agressive. Recently, i seem to be feeling particularly rage-struck whenever something like that happens. That's not a good sign, generally. More so for me.
Others have simply had the habit of bringing up bad memories or old thoughts which i had delibrately evicted from my mind a long time ago for my own reasons.
Job is good. Plans have started motion.
My point this day seems to simply be that right now, i hate most people. I don't want to, but it just seems to be going that way, and i can see how, but i literally cannot change it, unless the other person assists too, and usually they just fail.
Im stuck in a social mess, a relationships-based mess and also a mess my mind appears to be either fabricating or bringing to light. Either one it is, i still count it as a mess and i still see it as trouble for me. Most other topics or genres of mess or trouble, i can handle without too much fuss so there is not point in ranting about, or even mentioning them.
Right now i have a forefront point to make.
- If i don't personally tell you about something, or i don't respond enthusiastically or by explaining things to you, then its because it's something i don't want to tell you. Either it is personal, or plainly just none of your business. I figured that is reasonable.
The last thing i would like to say, is unless someone is just playing around, being a little immature for amusement purposes or simply having some fun; Don't be a child. Grow up. Having hissy fits and tantrums and the ever so popular 'i don't care approach of saying 'whatever' and wandering off, like that makes you such a memorable force of wrath, is to me... Purely pathetic.
I believe in discussion, though i know i get emotional. I won't block people on msn, i don't disregard people and walk away and i most certainly never take the 'oh whatever' approach to things.
I understand depression and other emotions and some personal issues can come into consideration during these times and various other points would be valid too, but you need a really worthy excuse to make some actions passable in my mind.
However unflattering, i do regard people and can't help having my opinions, which also means i can't help having my scale of respect. Those i can respect easily, and those it takes more effort to keep it there for and of course-
Extremely rare; the people i have no respect for.
I think im finished ranting now. A little angry still, and still hating a vast expanse of population...
But thats me.
Good to hear the job is coming along, a bit of progression helps and if you stay successful in it, things may look up at some point, perhaps? Though, it's sad to hear your relationship life isn't doing so well. Hope it ain't like that for long.