I know that nobody read it here, so decided to write. I need some "toilet for emotions".
I am tiered from neverending searching of someone or something at the same time I am tired of people. I am horrible D: I can`t keep my promises, I can`t do all that I must and feel that only one way to get out of here is to be forced to do something with it. But I have no motivation and no friend who could do it for me or they could but I`ll not listen them...
Teufelkreis...Every time than I feel that I found something that could help me, could be with me , every time- illusion. And in depends not only of language barier or differences between nations. I belive we are all the same and it`s unfortunately true. I forget how to write in english and it hurts. Few years ago I loved this language...Anyway. I don`t belive anymore that I could find somethung here or anywhere else. Maybe if I`ll just stay and watch something will changed? No way...Das kann nicht sein...leider...