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18 years ago
alright.
i dont really care if anyone reads this or whatever but i cant wait till my psychologist meeting which is in like october. and thats too long to wait
ok well i officially have no friends at all. i dont care if that sounds any bit emo but its the truth, i dont. my like only friend is like moving to tampa and im just stuck here alone. i thought i had friends but now that i think of it i dont. i thought that today i could stay afterschool and hang with someone but it didnt complete work out because i was somewhat ditched and i sat there just reading my book and listening to music. yes i like to read and listen to music but thats not the point i was fucking ignored like every other fucking day in my life. and whats sad about it, is that its gotten to the point were i cant even concentrate or focus in anything, even kung fu. im like in a fucking depression thing like i was in 8th grade and im almost tempted to fuckin cut myself again. gawd why are so people inconsiderate? and why do the wonder why im fucked up in the head? they barely even talk to me. the only time is when one of their friends arent there and im basically a fucking back up until they come back. its times like these were i was somewhere else, someone else. and somehow express my feeling other than rambeling.yeah i spell shit wrong but i dont care. i really dont. im fucking pissed off and fucking in like depression. ive like almost cried today like i dont know how many times and its like frusterating when your not fucking noticed. and like im not asking for much from them. im just asking for a conversation. ugh shit.
FUCK.
why am i always ignored? why am i always the 3rd fucking wheel?
i dont really care if anyone reads this or whatever but i cant wait till my psychologist meeting which is in like october. and thats too long to wait
ok well i officially have no friends at all. i dont care if that sounds any bit emo but its the truth, i dont. my like only friend is like moving to tampa and im just stuck here alone. i thought i had friends but now that i think of it i dont. i thought that today i could stay afterschool and hang with someone but it didnt complete work out because i was somewhat ditched and i sat there just reading my book and listening to music. yes i like to read and listen to music but thats not the point i was fucking ignored like every other fucking day in my life. and whats sad about it, is that its gotten to the point were i cant even concentrate or focus in anything, even kung fu. im like in a fucking depression thing like i was in 8th grade and im almost tempted to fuckin cut myself again. gawd why are so people inconsiderate? and why do the wonder why im fucked up in the head? they barely even talk to me. the only time is when one of their friends arent there and im basically a fucking back up until they come back. its times like these were i was somewhere else, someone else. and somehow express my feeling other than rambeling.yeah i spell shit wrong but i dont care. i really dont. im fucking pissed off and fucking in like depression. ive like almost cried today like i dont know how many times and its like frusterating when your not fucking noticed. and like im not asking for much from them. im just asking for a conversation. ugh shit.
FUCK.
why am i always ignored? why am i always the 3rd fucking wheel?
i dont know
we dont do anything anymore.
D:
yo es lonely!