After my rant-y journal, life seemed to go better for a while. I was having loads of fun and all. Of course, as soon as I told someone that judo classes were what kept me together, something HAD to go wrong in there.

The thing is, I really like the judo classes I go to. Right next to drawing, it's probably the best thing in my life.They always help me relax from the school's stress. I absolutely love it; I remember how happy I was when I won a standing match for the first time <33 It took me over one month before I managed to, but I still was the first in my class to achieve it, and now it's as easy as anything. Too easy, perhaps.

The girl everyone thinks she's my best friend was my partner. But she's got a problem with giving up, she always does; and when she thought I always won and she didn't stand a chance, she stopped offering resistance, and today she told me she was going to quit.

Now that is a problem for me, since our class is super small: there's two kids already paired up, me, and a three-year-old kid who always goes with our sensei, so that he can watch over him. Probably, I'll end up partnered with Roberto-sensei, and that kind of sucks, since he's a head taller than me and more or less twice as heavy. Not to mention he's (of course) a black belt. So I won't be getting anywhere so soon. Yeah, maybe that'll make me stronger at all... but what if it doesn't?

I think it had something to do with last class. Sensei told me he wanted me to go to the judo club's meeting this Friday, since he wanted to see me fight other opponents, and everybody kind of praised me a lot. Later, when we were doing physical practice, we had to hang on sort of dangling from a metal bar for as long as we could before going back down, and I held on for 58 seconds (ugh, I wanted to do one minute, but I ended up falling x__x) while she only did 5 seconds. She's one of those people with self-esteem issues (one suicide attempt, stopped by me, a true nightmare) and she's really childish, and it annoys me a lot. This week, though, we were having a lot of fun, when she suddenly told me she wanted to quit, and I don't know what to do. This is what I love. Now I'm being put to the test.

All I know is that I won't quit.