Things that need to be said to certain people, but I'm afraid to say. I doubt the people I'm addressing will read this (except maybe one or two, since only a few of the people here are actually watching me, and only one is a numbered one). I've been rather depressed lately, cried a lot, been avoiding opening up, and been kinda a poor friend... so I feel these things need to be out in the open. I'm hoping those of you who are numbered know who you are.
1) I've been crying a large portion of the past 24 hours. I'm gonna miss you so much :(
2) Sorry I've been so distant lately...a lot on my mind.... I hope I'll be back to my old self here soon *hugs*
3) I still don't quite know where we stand because your actions/inactions heavily imply one thing, and then you say something that is seemingly different. Sorry for being confused/slightly hurt by these things, I know it is a strain on you. Although whether or not you actually see this without a nudge or hint will tell me a lot about how things are between us.
4) I apologize for half-ignoring you, a lot on my plate, you know this, and I try my best not to, just sometimes don't need the extra drama to deal with.
5) Sorry my last chance to visit never panned out, life happens.
A few) I really want to talk to you more, just never seem to see you online at the right time
Many) I wish I could be a better friend to all of you, sorry I've been a failure at asserting myself without hurting you.

On a related note, this music has been running through my head all day, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vsh2p_Ku6-w