im doing good im getting to a good spot but i feel so alone, i miss my old friends but i skrewed up so bad they are gone... i just idk i want a hug i need human or furry contact.... im doing sooo much better tho im moving forward no matter how hard it is but is it ok to cry? is it ok to have all these negitive emotions am i allowed to get angry, sad etc... idk anymore and its like idk i havent slept in a few days maybe thats why im so down... idk i really dont know anymore am i losing myself? noone will prob ever read this because the people who are watching me hate me except one and they dont even know me in rl... i just feel like i need a sign or something this is stupid and pointless why do i even bother to write anything it seems like noone cares anyway i guess its good for me tho so i can vent because im alone i litterally have noone... but i did that to myself and i shouldnt complain... do you ever miss being a kid? where your biggest mistake was eating a cookie before dinner... i do... nom i should not have caffine it messes me up then i dont sleep for days and then i end up writing shit like this.... but if i didnt then i would never express my feelings and stuffing them just ends badly... i know this from experiance... if anyone does decide to read this please comment so that i know im not like alone in the world.... it would be comforting....NOM NOM NOM NOM NOMMMMM!!!!!!!! sorry bout that im kinda over thinking things yet again.... i wish people could see my progress but whatever i can do this... its hard but thats life....nom why must it be so hard tho?