So I went out to meet a fur in RL today. And for some reason, despite it all being good and doing a few fun things, I was provided good hospitality, but I left with a greater feel of loneliness than from before. Why I feel this way is beyond me.

It's probabally because I always feel out of place, and that I have yet to feel like I belong somewhere.. It is because I doubt myself too much.. Because I have convinced myself that I am unlovable. Yes, there IS someone out there for me. But I will never find that someone..

This is because I'm too emotionally dependant for anyone. I require too much to be happy. And I will never find someone who could fulfill such happiness..