Have you ever had a dream... where you were dead?

Im having a re occuring dream.... so far 3 times. Each time i am dead, no particular explanation as to why i am dead, but i am dead. And under this reailization.... im happy... Im at peace, im not worried, im not anxious, im just peace... I explore the areas that i interpriat as heaven or the afterlife or whatever. But im not affraid, and everything is fine, nothing that bothers me now, none of my faillings, none of my lack of confidence or stress over things like the posibility of bankruptcy this year are important... im just at peace.... The images are always fuzzy after i wake up but one i remember in particular resembled disneyworld jamed into my local zoo? But thats not realy important..

Anyways what scares me is the re occurance of this dream... like now my own subconcious is turning against me and telling me to die. Already told psyciatrist, he just thinks im under too much stress. But then again theres nothing more he can do about it, the anti depresents im on are already at max usuable dosage, any futher and i cant stop shaking like i have parkinsins. So he just wants to see me in 4 months to see how im doing... But how can i tell him how im doing when i dont even know? isnt that his job... ok ramble mode turned on, leaving now.