Here is my question: Do you really know somebody named Snivley?

No but I bet Miles and the Swatbots do V: I've known a Simon (not our Simon) and a Lee before, but I'm guessing Sniveleys don't exist in the wild v0v

A wild Sinveleys appears!

I am sad because I misplaced something ): It's for a project that is ongoing and classified and will be later revealed, but if you REALLY want to know I will tell you in a PM!



Crush info: Well to be honest I have to see both brains and beauty before I start falling for someone. And as I am not social enough to pick over the brains of many females, this number is rather limited .___. Since I'm not getting too many questions I'll just tl;dr this one with my entire crush history.

As a preface: I've never really thought about my crushes much...it's an involuntary feeling that I don't understand because SCIENCE must quantify everything. Maybe this is why I'm so ronerey </melodrama>

ANYWAY: the first one was in 7th grade, Krystal (hurr hurr I was destine to be a furry) (I was like 13 at the time) and I sat next to each other in social studies. Though much feigned anger/fights and the occasional doodling on each other with gel pen, we got to the point where we'd get all stuttery-tongued and blush like tomatoes whenever someone said we'd make a cute couple. We spent time talking over cafeteria food and lunchables about how she wanted to be an artist and I wanted to be a computery person.Nothing ever came of it though, she moved away and we shared little more than a goodbye hug before parting ways.

Crush #2 came in 8/9th grade; Shaina was, now that I think about it, a lot like Krystal - artist, talkative, physically abusive V: At the time she'd come talk to me about life and I'd just sit and listen (I was annoyingly talkative until about 6th grade, where I became quieter and quieter until today) and at the end we'd share a hug before going off to math/viola class. The one thing I remember most was a geography contest, winner goes on to state and national levels - everyone expected me to win at least 3rd or higher, but it turns out that I got most of my questions wrong and she got a fair amount right (ffs what middleschooler knows the name of the aquifer centered in Nebraska?). I was somewhat miffed but in a silly way, and she made me feel a bit better and invited me over. I declined because I was a programmed little boy that had to be at the bus stop before they left and I guess she took that as "Tai just wants to be friends".

#3 was 11th grade - Jessica was a computer geek (like me) who loved DDR (like me) and other video games (which I enjoyed). She seemed to be really grateful for me visiting (one time her brother's friend was all flabbergasted at my presence: "Jess has a FRIEND?!" ). She also makes chainmaille that's really awesome to see irl (once she made a vest for a cat V:). But alas, I moved away and she went and got married (though I visited recently and got to lay on her Lovesac~~).

#4 came about 16th grade (lawl) - Agni (insert Zuko joke here) came into lab about a year point five after I started. She wears outfits that can be described as "Cute and floofy" and rivals Liz in vertical height. But she's also a english/science double major going for an MD/PhD (again catering to my inner geek). For some reason she seems to want me over at her house a lot despite me being, at this point, as talkative as a rock. But I discovered that she has a preference for people not of my type and that she has a crush of her own; but again, I don't invest much in these crushes, they're unscientific >:( She's still a great friend and nothing's changed.

aaaand #5 is none other than (dramatic orchestra buildup) the one who kicked this off: TawnyCrow! A fellow aspiring scientist that shares (somewhat?) my ideals on speaking freely and a fellow furry? Who WOULDN'T get all warm and fuzzy about that? But seeing as we've only been actively communicating for less than two hours it seems premature to make any conclusions. V:



Excuse me while I go have an emotional crisis now.

This is so weird to read in hindsight. (i'm still a little jealous of tawnycrow. Jk jk!!! <3)

i share this policy with you
but
i have no questions. :(

It's no fun that way ): god I was expecting SO MUCH from you, do not to disappoint son.

IDK i'm pretty good at reading people so i probably already know a lot about you!!!

put it to the TEST. What do I fear most? And when do I feel most content? Also: What would I do if I was talking with someone and I overheard they wanted french fries from the place we just passed?

Be DESCRIPTIVE. at least two sentences each response, IF YOU FEEL CONFIDENT.

in all of these situations, your response would be very predictable. you would float on your back and crack oysters on your chest with a rock.

DAMN

see? i've got you pegged.

Hey, I don't think I'm THAT open to you yet....

sorry, i meant i'm *going* to have you pegged.

;DDDDD

o.O

I know what you mean.

What is your quest?!

To better the places I go to. It is the ultimate insult to have someone say that a place would be better off without you. It's sorta like calculus: You have a huge number area you want to estimate, but you can only measure it by looking at infinitely small slices. Taken together, those small slices add up to a bigger whole - where the slices can either be the straw that you threw on the ground because you didn't want to drink from side of the cup, or the bottle you pick up and throw away.

To be the best person I can be. I could totally spend the rest of my days analyzing Facebook games for ideal strategies and chatting on the interbutts, but if it's within me to rake in thousands of dollars by stitching people back together and forward the money to things like high school programs and free clinics, I'd say that'd be a better use of my efforts.

To push myself to the limits, and then beyond. Maybe I'm not cut out to be a doctor, a scientist, or even a fry cook. But I'll be damned if I don't spend countless 16 hour days at uni reaching for that M.D./PhD. Even if I don't make it, I'll be pretty darn well off to become something else.

If you meant something else I'm not quite sure I follow!

Oh, nice answers.

I was looking for "To seek the Holy Grail". X3

lollll

I have a serious lack of Monty Python in my video repertoire. Like, almost none. It's one of my life's great tragedies T_T

That must be fixed! X3

What specific kinds of socks do you favor?

The floofiest socks, suitable for tunnelling under and making "eee ee eeeee" sounds from :3

I have a confession: socks, like otters, are just an artifact of my internet sona. IRL I don't like those super low cut socks that don't protect your ankle from that part of the shoe (since imo the purpose of a sock is to protect defeat) but otherwise any sock is fine!

I have another confession: I've never felt the warm cuddle of toesocks.

Toesocks don't sound that appealing to me anyway.

SPEAKING OF WHICH, I just saw a guy in physics class the other day who had these strange shoe/slipper-like things.(Unclassifiable, I've never seen anything like them before.) They were mostly made of rubber and had individual little toe coverings at the end. They were like toesocks, but toeSHOES.

Ohhh this explains some of what was going on in irc last night :)

How far do your extend your openness? I wouldn't be very surprized if it went as far as anything and everything around your friends, DC, FA, because we are all very accepting of good people, no matter how weird you are.

But I would be surprized if it went that far in other environments like around relatives and in academia and in the workplace. Isn't there a certain level of privacy you have to bind yourself to simply to avoid being hurt or disadvantaged by others' traditions, prejudices, political correctness, etcetc?

Ooh, this one is tough, Perc. The big thing about your premise is that there's a difference between "the game" (u lose) where I answer questions here on FA - and "the policy" which extends everywhere.

I started on the internet since it IS a lot easier to hide behind a screen; I've told a few friends and plan to at least suggest it to everyone I'm on speaking terms with - but it would just be weird to go up to someone and say "HEY ASK ME ABOUT MY INNERMOST FEARS".

I'm also not saying that I'm going to be 100% truthful in everything I say - which is what I think your question was getting at. My openness policy is superceded by a few other things that make my "openness" secondary - for instance, it would be selfish for me to denounce religion in the presence of those who take solace in a god in the name of being open, but I will pull no punches when they start using religion as the reason to do something I don't agree with.

As far as, for example, academia – again, I'm not telling my professors to ask me anything (especially since most are too busy to care). I would be VERY WORRIED if a professor started out of nowhere asking, say, my porn habits (I'd be less worried about my values and more worried about why they're asking) so I don't have to worry as much. But should it come up, I would tell them. What it does mean there is that I will try harder to say "I think your idea is terrible because of X Y and Z". By the same token, I'm not going to go out to my parents and be all "yo moms ask me anything", but I'm going to start putting a little more effort into the answers I give them. I'm distant irl, even to mommy and daddy ;__;

It's hard to distill things into absolute rules (remember our conversation about athiest vs theist vs agnostic), but for the most part the only thing that will stop me from revealing something is if it would either make someone else uncomfortable in any way, or if short-term (yes, that means limited) secrecy would serve some purpose. But as for being disadvantaged...I guess I could simplify it to “I play by the rules” and “I won't shy away from hurt”. Without getting too tl;dr, I'll just say that I just said to my boss's face and outright said “I have not done that thing you asked me to do three weeks ago”, as well as had a conversation about how terrible I look :B

I used too many I's as openers in this poast.

This was a good question, I hadn't gotten around to thinking about my future directions with this.

ALSO: I'm sorrrrrta planning on releasing a "Tai's dirrrrty little secrets" type post here (but not elsewhere!) because a lot of things people don't know are things they'd probably never ask or are too afraid/embarrassed/etced to ask.

Dirty little secrets... *g*

You know it ;)

Hehe, you called me Perc.

Here is my also rather disjointed reply:
Yeah, the difference between "the game" and "the policy", as you said, was completely expected. I wouldn't expect you to flaunt your "dirrrrty secrets" around certain places.

But short of flaunting, I'm surprized that, were it to come up somehow, you would disclose something like your porn habits to a professor. Wouldn't you be worried about being treated differently then, or treated differently if you told your professor you were a furry and about your furry behaviours (if that makes a better point)? Well, you said you won't shy away from (getting) hurt, and that is essentially what my question was getting at. To what degree are you willing to hurt yourself in the name of openness and honesty. What I get from what you wrote is: A LOT. Your only condition for lying/closedness is if it protects people other than yourself. Correct?

>>I used too many I's as openers in this poast.
Haha, I often get that feeling about myself as well. It's hard to avoid when the topic is yourself.

Yes Perc, I called you perk. Percpercperc \:3/

I would say that currently, it isn't really hurtful to admit these things. I mean, if a prof tried to discredit me by calling me a dirrrty furry, he'd have to explain why he knew of these things in the first place. I live a pretty clean life, I'm pretty sure nothing could come up that would disenfranchise me from anything I'd want to do (consider: being a furry isn't really important unless I'm trying to get a job at a anti-furry establishment)

Also, I'd put a question back to you to answer the next part - what do you consider "getting hurt"? Certainly, the most difficult exercise of my new policy was when I point-blank admitted to someone I liked them; I initially considered not saying anything out of instinct, but it was surprisingly easy to actually say "Well, I sorta do have a crush on you," once I remembered my vow. So I wouldn't really consider that "getting hurt".

I'd need an example of something that could happen to me, personally, before I could really quantify how much theoretical hurt I could suffer; "Admitting to your boss you screwed up" doesn't really mean anything to me unless I actually screwed up - from there, I could make a better guess of how hurt I'd get, instead of guessing blindly. See my second paragraph for why I'm not worried about admitting most things.

Also yes you're right about my admission standards, though more and more I think I'm letting myself be pushed around a bit; if someone says something that offends me a little, I stay quiet because I think "The effort involved in getting into this argument would be less productive than just letting it go". I need to address this at some point, but for now I'm just ignoring those remarks because it's (too) easy for me to just go "Remind me why I care about your opinion?" in my mind.

Yes, we're talking a lot about myself. Open up your own AMA thread so I can probe you >:3

Is there anything in the near future that you're especially looking forward to?

What (if anything) is something that you're shy about, but you know you shouldn't be?

On a scale of 1 to socks, how much do you love rainbows?

Hmmmm.

I hope I can see Agni soon, sell my books for cash money, get my computer business running...but most immediately, I'm looking forward to my room being clean again :|

Hm!

I still hesitate when undressing in front of other people and talking irl to people I'm not familiar with. Just enough that I'll take a few seconds to override my initial "wait WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING" reflex. Also takes a little effort for me to talk in front of an audience, despite knowing my material and having presented dozens of times.

HMMMMM.

*bats at the rainbows then rolls around in the socks instead*