But i don't know which other way to put it. I recently just lost the only friends i had to talk too. It blows because i feel really alone. I have done some panting recently, the only thing that keeps me occupied. But it can only occupy my time so much before i get bored of it and start to yearn for human contact. I really don't know where this road leads but as the weeks go by i seem to grow a bit more isolated every day more and more. I get the feeling things wont get any better and i doubt any one will reach out to me, but it would be nice to have some one to talk to or at least say hi. The worst thing some one can go through is being forgotten or being isolated. But those are the fates of some people. Its funny in this modern age where communication is pretty much instant, to find ones self alone is a ridiculous subject but i find it very hard to reach out to people, or rather i guess people don't reach back out. It must be me? i guess. All i can do i guess is draw up stuff, paint stuff..find some way to leave a mark in this planet before i expire. Until that day comes i must keep doing some artsy stuff.