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On Saturday, April the Ninth, at Roughly Eight-Thirty,
14 years ago
my best friend TJ will be made aware of the status of my sexual orientation and I will be finally out of the closet to him.
Here is the condensed story: After many debates/conversations about college, TJ has thought up equal amounts of pros for me going to UW-Eau Claire as I have for UW-Madison. I decided that the most significant factor left about my college decision is how he will take my sexuality.
Earlier today, we talked about college again and when I left him he said that the next time he asks will be his final time for sure, promised. When I came home, I decided that I needed to finalize my life, too. I gathered enough bravery to call TJ and I told him that my decision was, more or less, hinged on something personal that I needed to talk to him about privately. He said he would be happy to set aside time for me and we are going to talk after a Show Choir 'recital' tomorrow.
I am pretty anxious and nervous. I know that this is good because it is nearly inevitable now but I am also afraid that he won't be my friend anymore. The only thing I can do is pray that God's will will be done and wait and see.
Here is the condensed story: After many debates/conversations about college, TJ has thought up equal amounts of pros for me going to UW-Eau Claire as I have for UW-Madison. I decided that the most significant factor left about my college decision is how he will take my sexuality.
Earlier today, we talked about college again and when I left him he said that the next time he asks will be his final time for sure, promised. When I came home, I decided that I needed to finalize my life, too. I gathered enough bravery to call TJ and I told him that my decision was, more or less, hinged on something personal that I needed to talk to him about privately. He said he would be happy to set aside time for me and we are going to talk after a Show Choir 'recital' tomorrow.
I am pretty anxious and nervous. I know that this is good because it is nearly inevitable now but I am also afraid that he won't be my friend anymore. The only thing I can do is pray that God's will will be done and wait and see.
After Show Choir, TJ dropped his sister off, then our friend Jasmine at her place, and then the conversation started afterwords. I will spare you all the details, but his main points were that he wasn't mad, he didn't think I was a freak and that he would still be my friend and still love me. But, he still believes how he does (that is, about the Bible and homosexuality) and well not press on me about it if I don't press on him about the opposite. He also said that I shouldn't be afraid to talk to him about it or related topics whenever I feel necessary and he won't either. He said that however my life ends up to be, whether I marry a man or end up with a woman, as long as I have God guiding me the whole way then it is best. The only really upsetting thing (I mean some of it was a tiny bit upsetting but understandable, but this was different) was when TJ said something about disliking me having 'the hots' for him and giving this icky face, but I guess that's understandable, too.
I was going to post a new journal for this, but the lack of responses made me assume no one would read it anyway.
...(You're not THAT hot xD ) <-- in my head :3
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