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14 years ago
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Friendship is Magic...apparently! I hate my dreams. Third time this has happened to me. I go to sleep in a good mood, and then I wake up sobbing.
First time, it involved my mother. Second time was about...a month after my grandfather died (I think...) and now as of this writing, my grandmother fell in line.
I remember most of the dream. Something had happened to her, and my grammy ended up in the hospital with a fractured SOMETHING. Had to do with her neck....or was it even a fracture...
Anyways, she was living on borrowed time. they wanted to try removing her skull to see if it helped (obviously now it was a dream) or just leave her to die there on the bed.
My ma, sis and I just waltz into a store in a random shopping mall and use this stores phones to talk to my grandmother. how she's able to speak is beyond me. My sis and ma continue to talk and talk. I try to use a phone, but it doesnt work. Hang it up, I end up hanging the rest of them up on grammy. So my sis freaks and runs off, ma calls back and hands the phone to me after apologizing as we try and hunt my sis down.
Granmmy starts going on about how, everyone's time will come, just that hers came now and that she was sorry. By this time I was outside with the store's phone walking next to a big delivery trailer, and I just started crying, talking about how...well, what I said I cant remember now, but I did remember one line clear as a bell. "Now I feel like a little kid" as I slid against the delivery trailer and bawled like a toddler.
woke up, had a tear in my right eye, sat there for a minute crying after..
My grandmother, mom, sister, and new niece are my life. and as the number dwindles, so would my heart, but the moment my MOTHER goes...I wouldn't be surprised if I sealed myself up in a room and snap at anyone who tried to get near me. Basically do a 180 in personality and keep away from everything.
that day will come, but I dread every single second of when it will eventually happen.
First time, it involved my mother. Second time was about...a month after my grandfather died (I think...) and now as of this writing, my grandmother fell in line.
I remember most of the dream. Something had happened to her, and my grammy ended up in the hospital with a fractured SOMETHING. Had to do with her neck....or was it even a fracture...
Anyways, she was living on borrowed time. they wanted to try removing her skull to see if it helped (obviously now it was a dream) or just leave her to die there on the bed.
My ma, sis and I just waltz into a store in a random shopping mall and use this stores phones to talk to my grandmother. how she's able to speak is beyond me. My sis and ma continue to talk and talk. I try to use a phone, but it doesnt work. Hang it up, I end up hanging the rest of them up on grammy. So my sis freaks and runs off, ma calls back and hands the phone to me after apologizing as we try and hunt my sis down.
Granmmy starts going on about how, everyone's time will come, just that hers came now and that she was sorry. By this time I was outside with the store's phone walking next to a big delivery trailer, and I just started crying, talking about how...well, what I said I cant remember now, but I did remember one line clear as a bell. "Now I feel like a little kid" as I slid against the delivery trailer and bawled like a toddler.
woke up, had a tear in my right eye, sat there for a minute crying after..
My grandmother, mom, sister, and new niece are my life. and as the number dwindles, so would my heart, but the moment my MOTHER goes...I wouldn't be surprised if I sealed myself up in a room and snap at anyone who tried to get near me. Basically do a 180 in personality and keep away from everything.
that day will come, but I dread every single second of when it will eventually happen.
