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Really beginning to hate my life...
14 years ago
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Well for starters, not sure if i should scared...
Last night found out i had a tumor growing in my back muscles, check up says i might have an extremely rare case of muscle cancer.
I think it started 2-3 months ago but waved it off to be a bug bite or something else, but ever since noticed it hasn't gone away and it actually became solid.
So yeah, possibly going to LA or Korea for better doctor stuff and another type of surgery.
Also, a bit of a continuation from my last journal.
I swear i have a gift with money and kind of a problem. After doing some tracking, have about 3200 dollars of loans given out floating around. (most from my mom)
And that's not including the commission thing :/
Also, have to wait longer for my car, maybe next month, and all I do is get to sit around and get fat.
Tried adopting a puppy, a German Shepard mix, but my apartment complex don't allow that breed.
Even though Huskies are a pretty common in Nevada, rather not own one cause really seems to hot.
More of a rant so i think i'll stop where i am now
Last night found out i had a tumor growing in my back muscles, check up says i might have an extremely rare case of muscle cancer.
I think it started 2-3 months ago but waved it off to be a bug bite or something else, but ever since noticed it hasn't gone away and it actually became solid.
So yeah, possibly going to LA or Korea for better doctor stuff and another type of surgery.
Also, a bit of a continuation from my last journal.
I swear i have a gift with money and kind of a problem. After doing some tracking, have about 3200 dollars of loans given out floating around. (most from my mom)
And that's not including the commission thing :/
Also, have to wait longer for my car, maybe next month, and all I do is get to sit around and get fat.
Tried adopting a puppy, a German Shepard mix, but my apartment complex don't allow that breed.
Even though Huskies are a pretty common in Nevada, rather not own one cause really seems to hot.
More of a rant so i think i'll stop where i am now
I haven't had student aid since I started college. Hopefully my fafsa comes in soon.
I always find it stupid when certain breeds are banned from apartment complexes, especially when it's common breeds.
German Shepards I really can't understand, it's one of the smartest dogs and thus among the easiest to train. Can't see any logical reason for them to be banned =/
I don't get the why curtain breeds being baned as well, other than size and other psychical reasons, if not that, it doesn't make much scene. It could be the careless of owners maybe.
I really hope you can get everything sorted out.
Awrrrrrf... *hugs tight and holds you close*
I'm here for you in any way I can be, if you want someone to talk to or vent at or maybe I can offer advice.. anything, just name it, ok? But don't you go giving up and letting yourself get depressed.. please. You're a wonderful, sweet, kind person, and I don't want to see you spiral in a bad direction. You deserve better than that, and I'm sure that you'll make it out of ALL of this. About the money and car stuff, well... the situation sucks, but you can make changes for the better! Go out for walks or runs, or do a workout routine at home. I started to feel lousy physically because I sat on my butt all day at my job and home, so I started walking to/from the train station each day and feel much better. I'm not totally sure about how to deal with the money issues, but from what we talked about last time, I think getting a little more assertive would do you a lot of good.
But anyway... I'm serious, I'm here for you however I can be. I want to help you smile and be happy.
*squeezes* <3