I just don't like 110% of what I draw these days. So when I do draw, it's rare to see anything past the first hour of work. I'm feeling low and unmotivated when it comes to drawing. I really want to get something down and lordie knows I've got 4 or five good sketches going but they aren't awesome and I feel like if it isn't awesome, it's not worth finishing.

I also can draw what I want to any more. I don't have the privacy to just draw. I've got people in the house constantly looking over my shoulder. I wonder if there are pressure-sensitive tablet laptops that I could get. Typically I am the most inspired when I am supposed to be doing something else but now that I have so little else I should be doing, I can't find any inspiration.

I used to draw those lily blue comics but I got to where I hated everything about it, up to and including the art. But I think that due to the fact that I don't ever do a good job with backgrounds, and if I do, then coloring them is a chore because I want them to be perfect but I don't have the patience. It would be fun to draw with some folks, maybe do some of those art challenges. I think my art went leaps and bounds when I was drawing the tarot pieces and I kind of want to redo them with what I feel are my improved drawing abilities, but I should really try to do the suits instead. Seems laborious and I would get little satisfaction (or viewership) out of them.

I guess it frustrates me to see people churning out good work on a pretty regular basis and I'm having a tough time getting anything down on "paper."

Don't mind me folks, I'm just retarded.

Reflex