So, as I said I was planning to, I went to FA:U this year. My first con in at least two years if not longer. Honestly, I've not done many conventions and I'm still not entirely sure I understand the process. This one was particularly stressful because I was trying to make a gentle push for being a more open about being a diaperfur.
I got a badge done of my magical, padded kitty self by the fantastic  o-kemono. You can see it here http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5798072/ , I'm in the middle row. If you take a close look, you can see that my padding isn't wildly obvious because of the pose. He also managed to get my colors wrong. >_< But I imagine he had a limited color pallet or something, I'm not sure. I didn't want to complain, I didn't pay too much and he did a really fantastic job with the art regardless.
So I wore that badge (in addition to some others) around the con. Most people thought they were shorts or panties, only a couple people caught on to the fact that it was actually a diaper.
The thing is, though, I really wanted to let myself loose and let everyone know the truth, that I am a diaperfur. I'm not entirely sure why that would have been important, but I think it was because then I feel like I could have gone about padded without any guilt. As it was, I only got padded when I went home, I was too uptight to go to the con that way.
The problem is that my friends like to get frisky and we all tease each other a lot. A lot of groping in that area was bound to (and did) take place and I would feel guilty if someone got a surprise in that way. I feel obliged to warn them somehow.
One of the guys who figured it out was an old roommate and his reaction wasn't horrible, but he did give me a moment of the stink-eye. I felt about an inch tall, but did what I always do; I grinned, shrugged my shoulders and said "You know me, I do what I like." He seemed to accept that and said he was just giving me a hard time cause I was his friend, but I still felt just the tiniest bit of rejection. He also said 'just not in my face or in my car/home and I'm fine with it'. But what am I supposed to do with that? "Oh, I can't ride with you, I'll take my car." "Why?" *Blank stare.*

Now I'm in a weird emotional state. I've been known in the fandom for years as the reverse colored moogle. I had an alternate fursona as a black cat with green wings. Now I've created this completely seperate fursona with me as padded, magical, kitty. How do I go from being me from before to now? Do I just announce it on my existing profile? How do I say it?
I also worry about who's going to abandon me if I come out about this more fully. I know, they aren't really my friends if such a little thing makes them hate me or dissociate from me, but...

Also, I drank and smoked way too much this weekend. Part of me feels that if I had gone padded I would have felt a little less vulnerable and not needed the gentle haze of booze to be social.