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MAJOR Emo Bear/Dragon
14 years ago
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Well, I hit my stress breaking point last weekend and did a few stupid things, including bailing on guests for gaming night, disappearing out for a walk without telling anyone where I was going, and then deciding in a really misguided attempt to end my life by taking a bunch of anti-anxiety meds.
After telling my dragon what I had done, he promptly scolded me for doing what I had done and contacted the poison control center and wanted to know if i was going to be OK. I was kept up till about 1am to make sure I didn't stop breathing and then went to bed.
The feeling about harming myself progressed through the rest of the weekend through Monday afternoon, when I decided to do something. Thanks to my housemate and great friend sirkain, I asked for a ride to the closest hospital and went into the ER.
A few hours later, I was admitted to the psychiatric ward for suicidal and homicidal tendencies and severe depression. I was told I would be there between one and five days, but was told I could not leave until cleared. Once I got settled into my room, I immediately started crying and finally fell asleep. My days started at about 7am with vitals like blood pressure and temp taken with breakfast at 8, followed by group therapy at 915, another group at 1015 and lunch at 12. At 115 and 215 we had another group and were free till dinner at 5pm. After that, we were free to relax and watch tv and whatnot until 8pm which was our daily wrap up group. Every day, we had to set treatment goals to achieve and at the end of the day, we let the nurses and doctors know if we achieved those goals.
I really believe that my recent hospitalization is the result of the anti-0anxiety medicine I was one, because when they adjusted the medication to a different one, my negative feelings went away. My first full night there I had a visit with both mom and sister, followed by a brief visit with my dragon, who also attended my family meeting later in the week.
I was finally cleared and discharged late Friday afternoon, and as I type this, I am finally home where I know I need to be with dragon sitting next to me and the dog guarding our room.
After telling my dragon what I had done, he promptly scolded me for doing what I had done and contacted the poison control center and wanted to know if i was going to be OK. I was kept up till about 1am to make sure I didn't stop breathing and then went to bed.
The feeling about harming myself progressed through the rest of the weekend through Monday afternoon, when I decided to do something. Thanks to my housemate and great friend sirkain, I asked for a ride to the closest hospital and went into the ER.
A few hours later, I was admitted to the psychiatric ward for suicidal and homicidal tendencies and severe depression. I was told I would be there between one and five days, but was told I could not leave until cleared. Once I got settled into my room, I immediately started crying and finally fell asleep. My days started at about 7am with vitals like blood pressure and temp taken with breakfast at 8, followed by group therapy at 915, another group at 1015 and lunch at 12. At 115 and 215 we had another group and were free till dinner at 5pm. After that, we were free to relax and watch tv and whatnot until 8pm which was our daily wrap up group. Every day, we had to set treatment goals to achieve and at the end of the day, we let the nurses and doctors know if we achieved those goals.
I really believe that my recent hospitalization is the result of the anti-0anxiety medicine I was one, because when they adjusted the medication to a different one, my negative feelings went away. My first full night there I had a visit with both mom and sister, followed by a brief visit with my dragon, who also attended my family meeting later in the week.
I was finally cleared and discharged late Friday afternoon, and as I type this, I am finally home where I know I need to be with dragon sitting next to me and the dog guarding our room.
