Ive gone from extremes of anger, depression and jubilation to complete dispaire. Anger over the casey anthony verdict. Depression over killing a fawn. Jubilation over my closing date FINALLY getting here after 2 months of pins and needles.... and today. Im miserable. They called all 200+ employees into a meeting as soon as I got to work today, and told us that they were closing my plant. Effective in about a year. Now Im wondering how the fuck Im supposed to pay off a mortgage and a student loan when Im on unemployment.

Life sucks and then you die, only this time my family has been dealt yet another blow that is crippling and there doesnt seem to be much silver lining here. Im just depressed as shit right now, and I dont do art very well when Im like that. Sooooo there goes my plans for any sort of lesson work on digital painting I was contemplating. Hoping I can find the will to do the commissions I know I will have to start taking to stay afloat.

I really need a hug. Or to win the lottery.