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14 years ago
I'm back from my hiatus! However, things appear to be taking a turn for the worst as far as mistakes have gone and it's slowly dawning on me that attempting to drop out of school was probably one of the dumbest things I've done all year.
Part of me knows that I should be pursuing what makes me happy, and putting myself first before anything, but whatever I decide to do will come with a price. Either I temporarily put my happiness aside to finish school, or I flunk it and lose two of my friends. It seems that education comes first no matter what, as I also have to follow the law and be working/studying until the age of 17.
My optimism is gradually decreasing with each day, knowing that I only have so long before I can finalize what I want to do with the next six months of my life. My time in hospital has also made me aware of what this is doing to my physical health as well. I'm aware that no matter what I decide to do, I need to change my attitude and I'm still struggling with how to do that.
...Eh. So this is somewhat of a rant, but I'm not really trying to seek any attention from anyone. I've given up trying to get sympathy, so all I can ask for is encouragement while I try to work out my ambitions.
Part of me knows that I should be pursuing what makes me happy, and putting myself first before anything, but whatever I decide to do will come with a price. Either I temporarily put my happiness aside to finish school, or I flunk it and lose two of my friends. It seems that education comes first no matter what, as I also have to follow the law and be working/studying until the age of 17.
My optimism is gradually decreasing with each day, knowing that I only have so long before I can finalize what I want to do with the next six months of my life. My time in hospital has also made me aware of what this is doing to my physical health as well. I'm aware that no matter what I decide to do, I need to change my attitude and I'm still struggling with how to do that.
...Eh. So this is somewhat of a rant, but I'm not really trying to seek any attention from anyone. I've given up trying to get sympathy, so all I can ask for is encouragement while I try to work out my ambitions.
Thanks for the support though~
I will laugh the day you actually accept your situation instead of fighting tooth and claw for what it is you want to happen.
up to you really, will you be laughing when you give up the fight?
And If I means anything to you, I have every intention to die with a smile on my maw and a cup of coffee in each Paw.
Its not just a lack of attitude because I graduated high school, still not amused with having to do it. Its also a question of motivation. I'm sure you want your happiness but sometimes its not enough fuel for the fire.
Try shutting out the world around you when you have a current task at hand.