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Four Pizzas
14 years ago
I had pizza for four meals in a row. First at TJ's yesterday for lunch, then at work for supper (I had a free personal pan coming), then at a local bar for lunch today, then at a different local bar for supper. I feel like shit; don't ever do this.
I haven't been feeling very good lately, and I don't necessarily mean the emotional or spiritual good but the actual physical good. I haven't been eating very much or very well. I haven't really mentioned this on here much because it hasn't had need to come up, but simply put the financial situation here right now blows so we've been eating a lot less.
That paragraph brings around three semi-related topics:
In the PHYSICAL HEALTH department: I think I have staph infection on my face (again). Not related to food but still it blows. But idk; it could just be acne, but one of them bruised and another won't go away. I'll go look at that this week.
In the FINANCE department: I hate hate hate hate lending out money (and there are not many things that I hate) but I have had to lend out money to my parents to the point that I seriously lost track of how much. I think around $275 is out in the red somewhere in my parents' pockets. They come to me because my mom owes my sister $750 for an electric bill and she yelled at her for it and will never lend again. I wish I had the balls to do that but I don't. I feel obligated to because their reasons often leave no other choice ("I get paid in two weeks and I need gas to make it to work" or "There is nothing to eat here, will you take us out to eat?").
In the SPIRITUAL HEALTH department: Ramadan approaches (roughly the first of August) and I haven't decided if I will go through with it again. I think I learned and grew a lot spiritually last year and would love to do it over again but there are several reasons that make me want to miss it this year. First, my mom and sister were terribly upset that I did it last year, and would be even more so if I made it a habit. There was also a jaundice scare last year in the height of the fast. I haven't been feeling great like I previously said so eating even less sounds like a terrible idea, especially during the first weeks of school.
That's all, I guess. I'm posting all of this because I can't sleep tonight. I've been having this spotty insomnia ever since Baccalaureate, I think. I never used to stress (at all even) but now I have been all of the time about the littlest things. Hopefully I can find a way to suppress that.
God, I feel so negative lately. My apologies.
I haven't been feeling very good lately, and I don't necessarily mean the emotional or spiritual good but the actual physical good. I haven't been eating very much or very well. I haven't really mentioned this on here much because it hasn't had need to come up, but simply put the financial situation here right now blows so we've been eating a lot less.
That paragraph brings around three semi-related topics:
In the PHYSICAL HEALTH department: I think I have staph infection on my face (again). Not related to food but still it blows. But idk; it could just be acne, but one of them bruised and another won't go away. I'll go look at that this week.
In the FINANCE department: I hate hate hate hate lending out money (and there are not many things that I hate) but I have had to lend out money to my parents to the point that I seriously lost track of how much. I think around $275 is out in the red somewhere in my parents' pockets. They come to me because my mom owes my sister $750 for an electric bill and she yelled at her for it and will never lend again. I wish I had the balls to do that but I don't. I feel obligated to because their reasons often leave no other choice ("I get paid in two weeks and I need gas to make it to work" or "There is nothing to eat here, will you take us out to eat?").
In the SPIRITUAL HEALTH department: Ramadan approaches (roughly the first of August) and I haven't decided if I will go through with it again. I think I learned and grew a lot spiritually last year and would love to do it over again but there are several reasons that make me want to miss it this year. First, my mom and sister were terribly upset that I did it last year, and would be even more so if I made it a habit. There was also a jaundice scare last year in the height of the fast. I haven't been feeling great like I previously said so eating even less sounds like a terrible idea, especially during the first weeks of school.
That's all, I guess. I'm posting all of this because I can't sleep tonight. I've been having this spotty insomnia ever since Baccalaureate, I think. I never used to stress (at all even) but now I have been all of the time about the littlest things. Hopefully I can find a way to suppress that.
God, I feel so negative lately. My apologies.
Anyways, I'd definitipy see a doctor about anything :/ I've apparently had gastritis since, oh, about January.... yeah, not cool ._.
ffffff- damn phone >:/
I guess I'm not seeing the doctor. My mom just called the clinic to give me the same prescription I had last time which I'm picking up today. If it works then it does, but if it doesn't (or if it comes back again) then we'll see the doctor. I'm kind of okay with that I guess but I wish Mom would have talked to me about that first.
I agree, your mom should've talked with you first. She may just be looking out for you, but it's your health and you should really have a say in it. Hope the meds work for you.
And I hope your gastritis gets better. Is that a thing that gets better or is that a thing that's just always there? Also what's BMI?
And BMI is Body Mass Index. If i remember correctly the normal is around 22 (?) or something and mine was last at 19
I understand what you're saying about going but easily coming back. Staph is a lot like that.