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The world hates me...its the only explination...
14 years ago
The Pterosaur sez:
I get knocked down and when finally I have gotten myself back on my feet...the world decides to punch me down even harder. In fact its decided that's not good enough and then proceeds to hold me down and kick me till I twitch. So as a previous journal had stated, my laptop had a critical meltdown resulting in me having to replace the hard drive. Now it functions on some level but I lost the ability to do any sort of serious art work on it because I no longer had photoshop. So I moved on to my desktop who worked rather fine if a bit on the slow side. After a few tests to get used to it again, I found that I could art decently on it and proceeded to finally get myself back on track with art and commissions.
But I have apparently spit in the face of god by doing this. For after using my desktop for a short amount of time with it showing absolutely nothing wrong and having never once done something like blue screen or locking up, has stopped functioning. Last night it did an automatic restart for updates while I wasn't looking, all fine and good I mean computers do that all the time so nothing out of the ordinary. But then as it attempted to come back on.....windows wouldn't activate. Its just decided out of the blue that being a functioning machine is not for it. So I've started attempting to figure out why the sudden change from happy functioning machine to large paperweight.
To make matters worse, unlike my laptop which had many signs of not doing well (so I had actually bothered backing things up for the most part) I rarely backed anything up on my desktop. I mean I had not really been using it at all for years until not long ago, so it never occurred to me to back up all my old school work (Though I'm sure most of that is actually saved on my external somewhere)
So until things are figured out, all art is on hold. You don't know how supremely frustrating this whole situation is, I was finally getting my art groove back. My slump was ending and I was drawing like mad last night. Things were looking up...
But the world said no...
To make matters worse my laptop is on the fritz more then ever, constantly connecting and un-connecting from the internet and refusing to connect at times. Making it hard to even talk to anyone and get anything done.
But I have apparently spit in the face of god by doing this. For after using my desktop for a short amount of time with it showing absolutely nothing wrong and having never once done something like blue screen or locking up, has stopped functioning. Last night it did an automatic restart for updates while I wasn't looking, all fine and good I mean computers do that all the time so nothing out of the ordinary. But then as it attempted to come back on.....windows wouldn't activate. Its just decided out of the blue that being a functioning machine is not for it. So I've started attempting to figure out why the sudden change from happy functioning machine to large paperweight.
To make matters worse, unlike my laptop which had many signs of not doing well (so I had actually bothered backing things up for the most part) I rarely backed anything up on my desktop. I mean I had not really been using it at all for years until not long ago, so it never occurred to me to back up all my old school work (Though I'm sure most of that is actually saved on my external somewhere)
So until things are figured out, all art is on hold. You don't know how supremely frustrating this whole situation is, I was finally getting my art groove back. My slump was ending and I was drawing like mad last night. Things were looking up...
But the world said no...
To make matters worse my laptop is on the fritz more then ever, constantly connecting and un-connecting from the internet and refusing to connect at times. Making it hard to even talk to anyone and get anything done.
So the best I can do is offer my deepest heartfelt feelings, and say I was in a similar scenario as yours. My world crumbled, nothing went right for me.
I can't do art in my current location and may not be able to until year's end, but it was mostly my fault.
Although many factors were uncontrolable, left me feeling weak, helpless even.
The best advice I can give is to consider investment into a portable harddrive, or backup saves of all the good things you have stored up. Consider a new computer, with the mindset of using it for art solely.
Computers are not as cheap as a dime a dozen, yet, but they are getting more affordable then ever, and some come with incredible deals. My computer was actually completely free, the catch being it's used for my job until my employment term is up.
Try to chin up. The world hurts, but it hurts us all, in many ways. Letting the world win makes it sting the most.
I've now hope I can bring my desktop back. As I finally got the system repair/restore to come up (It wasn't coming up because my portable harddrive was attached. Which is an odd problem to have but oh well)
I had 931GB of files there. All my games were installed there (it was the fastest HD), and I was using it to backup my 320GB and 160GB disks. So I lost the backups, my installed games (ALL of them), the ISOs of the games I didn't had the dvds anymore (around 15 games), my movies, tv shows, vore pictures from 2010... all of them.
I'm still in process of recovering the loss. Western Digital HD no more. My both Samsung are working fine since 2006 with no sign of problems (not even one bad sector yet), and now I own another 1.5TB drive, also from Samsung.
Good luck with recovering your desktop files! o/