So... That friend who was staying? Nah, he wasn't a friend, he was my ex. I had to disguise that to not hurt someone else's feelings or something.

I just got back from the train station from dropping him off... two guys hugging and kissing in public? Yeah, got a few stares, and you know what? I don't give a fuck. I didn't give a fuck that I was sat on the bridge watching the train and wouldn't leave until it had and had to sit down for half an hour to pull myself together in public. All I cared about was seeing him off for what had been an amazing week together... we spent every night together, shared the same "bed" (I'm sure if you're reading this Roro, you'll understand xD) and we just... had an amazing time. Three years of waiting over phones, internet, cards... and we finally made it real. I'm still really confused if it really happened or not, it felt so surreal... right now? I'm in tears. This isn't a "oh feel bad for me" thing - nah, I just want to write this down somewhere to remind myself how much fun this has been and how much of an amazing experience it has been.

I'm happy, I'm complete again... I feel human. Sure, I'm stunned that he had to go... but, that was the only hard thing about this whole week. I'm currently snuggling up into the hoody he left me, it smells exactly like him <3

I liked how when we first saw each other, we just... it was never awkward, I love that we just talked as if it was like it would be on Skype. I'm still a little dazed from everything so I won't ramble on but...

Arai, thank you... for an amazing time, making me feel special and just everything... <3