yeah, that's how I feel right now. Sadly there isn't much I can do about it.

OCT is going to suck for me, although I have both my b-day and going to FF, and seeing my BF. By the end of that month though, no more internet, no nothing cause I'll be back living with my parents.


in my mind if I could break past the negative thoughts I keep on getting I can see a better option to life, but right now I just can't.