Can't even concentrate right now, my mind is rushing thought a lot of things and all I can do is sit here and type about it. I think what is going to happen is going to be bad, very very bad, but you see I can't do much about it. It is starting to worry me to the point where I Don't think anything will help and I'm running out of time. ONly time will tell right? Well fuck time, I feel like I'm going insane..... nope, wait, I'm fine. I think I'm just rushing to much around in my mind. Depressed, terrified, worried, upset, all of what I feel.

Oh my eating habit, well they went out the window a few days ago, Last I know I think I ate something three days ago. I mean I don't feel hungry, and all I wanna do is just sleep and look endlessly into the sky wondering why my life is like this. Is it cause of me if so then why continue, why bother, who cares right..... oh wait friends do, not going to say family cause I don't have one. I don't know my real parents.


I'm done, I'm going through a radical punishment, and if god is real then why the fuck are you doing this! I'd rather be nailed to the cross and die that way then suffer this way. Why not grow some fucking balls and come live how I do, then you'll see it's not so easy when you have no one to come home to or even have a place to call home. SO FUCK YOU!