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I totally lack common sense.
14 years ago
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Don't wait for the queue to shrink—the commission docket is rarely empty.It's been one health issue after another, as well as some surprise life issues (which you guys have been told about), but I swear to God I have no common sense.
Remember that whole thing with the fire/smoke scare and me saying how my eyes hurt and how freaked out I was and how I hurt my hand? I took a day off and then a day later my eyes started bothering me REALLY badly. I constantly felt the need to rub them, and probably put a lot of strain on the muscles around them squinting, widening them, squeezing them shut and just generally trying to figure out WTF was wrong all of the sudden.
I thought, it must be the makeup I put on the other day, or allergies I've never had before, or my ADD medication giving me problems, or cigarette smoke from a party I went to.
Not once did I think "oh right, I was in a house full of smoke with my eyes open and they burned for the rest of the day."
DERP.
So I couldn't work for like, two days because staring at computer monitors for even 2 minutes was doing my eyes in... unfortunately I was stupid enough to force it for the first day, which made things worse -- I have a massive project due and I'm almost done with it, but it's a little behind schedule and I wanted to just shut up and try to finish it. Kind of a mistake.
Thankfully I went to the pharmacy and picked up some eye drops, have been using them, and my eyes are mostly healed now. But seriously, guys, I really wish I had more common sense... then again, even Cory said he felt like an idiot when he didn't think of it until I finally brought it up.
*head to desk* But, now I have eye drops for day and for night and I should be able to take better care of my eyes. Did you know they make eye lubricant gel that's just for nighttime, that keeps your eyes from drying out and opening up while you're asleep (which can be a cause of dry eyes in the morning)? It's bizarre. You put it in but it like, glosses over your vision and you can't see. X3 Creepy!
In other news, I ditched my old psychiatrist and got a new one. She is WONDERFUL. Very classy lady, very warm, and has a big, posh office on the 7th floor of a high rise downtown. She even put in an order to have me get some blood work done, suggesting that perhaps I have an issue with my thyroid that could be related to my weight/attention/sleep problems. Since my doctor didn't test for it we're going to go ahead and get that done.
I was only there for maybe 30-45 minutes and she got my entire life story, family history, medical history, and pretty much now knows everything about me just because she knew to ask the right questions. My previous psychiatrist had an office that felt more like a closet and didn't really seem to give a damn about anything but getting me in and out as fast as possible. Happy to be done with him. :/ Did I mention I tried to call him over and over to tell him I couldn't make my last appointment, never got through, and he never even called to check in? Screw that guy. Dr. Brown (new psychiatrist) even knew my regular doctor and my counselor by name! In Houston! This is a huge city, that's really a good sign.
The sad part is, this awesome, accredited psychiatrist with rave reviews costs exactly the same for me to see as the guy who acted like he hated me, had no voice mail or secretary, and took six phone calls every time I was sitting in his office. I feel like such a dunce for staying with him for 3 months. I'm so non-confrontational that I just guess I thought I couldn't do any better and I wouldn't have dared ask him to be less of a jerk. But I digress. Live and learn!
She also is switching me to Vyvanse from Adderall -- I was concerned about this, but I wasn't going to have a choice in the matter, anyway; there's a massive shortage in the chemicals used to make the latter, and after doing some research I've learned that Vyvanse is better in a ton of ways, anyhow. It's also harder to abuse because if the way it's packaged (capsules, not crushable pills) so hopefully my insurance company will stop giving me a hard time about helping to pay for it.
We're still broke but as soon as the medication stuff sorts itself out and my eyes are totally better I should hack through that queue like butter. It's seriously been a weird couple of months. ; ;
Thanks for the support. Back to work!
Remember that whole thing with the fire/smoke scare and me saying how my eyes hurt and how freaked out I was and how I hurt my hand? I took a day off and then a day later my eyes started bothering me REALLY badly. I constantly felt the need to rub them, and probably put a lot of strain on the muscles around them squinting, widening them, squeezing them shut and just generally trying to figure out WTF was wrong all of the sudden.
I thought, it must be the makeup I put on the other day, or allergies I've never had before, or my ADD medication giving me problems, or cigarette smoke from a party I went to.
Not once did I think "oh right, I was in a house full of smoke with my eyes open and they burned for the rest of the day."
DERP.
So I couldn't work for like, two days because staring at computer monitors for even 2 minutes was doing my eyes in... unfortunately I was stupid enough to force it for the first day, which made things worse -- I have a massive project due and I'm almost done with it, but it's a little behind schedule and I wanted to just shut up and try to finish it. Kind of a mistake.
Thankfully I went to the pharmacy and picked up some eye drops, have been using them, and my eyes are mostly healed now. But seriously, guys, I really wish I had more common sense... then again, even Cory said he felt like an idiot when he didn't think of it until I finally brought it up.
*head to desk* But, now I have eye drops for day and for night and I should be able to take better care of my eyes. Did you know they make eye lubricant gel that's just for nighttime, that keeps your eyes from drying out and opening up while you're asleep (which can be a cause of dry eyes in the morning)? It's bizarre. You put it in but it like, glosses over your vision and you can't see. X3 Creepy!
In other news, I ditched my old psychiatrist and got a new one. She is WONDERFUL. Very classy lady, very warm, and has a big, posh office on the 7th floor of a high rise downtown. She even put in an order to have me get some blood work done, suggesting that perhaps I have an issue with my thyroid that could be related to my weight/attention/sleep problems. Since my doctor didn't test for it we're going to go ahead and get that done.
I was only there for maybe 30-45 minutes and she got my entire life story, family history, medical history, and pretty much now knows everything about me just because she knew to ask the right questions. My previous psychiatrist had an office that felt more like a closet and didn't really seem to give a damn about anything but getting me in and out as fast as possible. Happy to be done with him. :/ Did I mention I tried to call him over and over to tell him I couldn't make my last appointment, never got through, and he never even called to check in? Screw that guy. Dr. Brown (new psychiatrist) even knew my regular doctor and my counselor by name! In Houston! This is a huge city, that's really a good sign.
The sad part is, this awesome, accredited psychiatrist with rave reviews costs exactly the same for me to see as the guy who acted like he hated me, had no voice mail or secretary, and took six phone calls every time I was sitting in his office. I feel like such a dunce for staying with him for 3 months. I'm so non-confrontational that I just guess I thought I couldn't do any better and I wouldn't have dared ask him to be less of a jerk. But I digress. Live and learn!
She also is switching me to Vyvanse from Adderall -- I was concerned about this, but I wasn't going to have a choice in the matter, anyway; there's a massive shortage in the chemicals used to make the latter, and after doing some research I've learned that Vyvanse is better in a ton of ways, anyhow. It's also harder to abuse because if the way it's packaged (capsules, not crushable pills) so hopefully my insurance company will stop giving me a hard time about helping to pay for it.
We're still broke but as soon as the medication stuff sorts itself out and my eyes are totally better I should hack through that queue like butter. It's seriously been a weird couple of months. ; ;
Thanks for the support. Back to work!
Happened to me aswell, came from the doc that was treating certain people (aka - private insured patients) better than others, to one that was very friendly and concerning one.
Hope things brighten up now for you here!
don't worry, i wouldn't say things are dark. :d just jumbled! everyone on FA is so supportive. i try to never forget how grateful i am for everyone's support. i'd go crazy without you guys!
Also ya thyroid being out of balance can mess with a LOT of things, weight gain/loss, sleep, and so on.
Common sense lol, hindsight 20/20 right? Don't feel bad I rarely think about things beforehand, or during for that matter.
I didn't realize my thyroid could have ever been a problem, but Dr. Brown is having me get that bloodwork done, so maybe we'll see! It's weird how one little gland can throw your whole system so out of whack. I have a dog back home with an underactive thyroid who has weight problems, and I had two ex-boyfriends with OVERactive thyroids who were skinny as a rail no matter how much they ate.
Yeah, I felt like a dummy. If I'd realized it was leftover smoke particles bugging me I wouldn't have kept rubbing my eyes or sat around waiting for it to get better. I did try flushing my eyes with warm water but it didn't help. I have a history of thinking something terrible was wrong with me, only to be told to try one simple thing and have the problem go away immediately. I had my first migraine a few years ago and thought I was having an aneurysm (my cousin died of one at six years old :( ), was screaming in pain for 30 minutes while my best friend tried to comfort me. Boyfriend came home, told me to take an ibuprofen... 15 minutes later, from screaming in agony to feeling absolutely no pain at all.
So, like I said -- I have no common sense sometimes! ; ; I need a Jiminy Cricket, but like, for common sense instead of conscience.
Be careful, it's strong stuff..
I crash hard everyday when it wears off, and when I wakeup I go through withdrawal because of that until I take it again..
Again, strong stuff.
Does it give you any headaches (withdrawal)? I've noticed the Adderall has given me very light headaches if I don't take it right away in the morning. Ibuprofen fixes that, but that's just not a good thing to have to do every day.
How bad is the crash? Is it just, sleepy crash, or like, ...are there psychological side effects for you?
And the crash mostly includes mental fatigue, headaches, inability to focus..
The withdrawal is mainly mental fatigue, constant hunger. (Even if you're full, you'll still be hungry.)
Addrall has made me lose 15 lbs, but it's levelled off. I learned to take a huge breakfast and then try to force a smoothie in the middle of the day. I appreciate these warnings! I may have to buckle down and keep track of my first experiences on this stuff. :(
My main concerns with switching were that "slow release" might mean "won't do much", but I've read that that's absolutely not going to be a problem. As well, I was concerned because Vyvanse doesn't have a generic version so it's going to be more expensive. How MUCH more expensive, I don't know; we'll find out later today when I pick it up. Hopefully I can afford it, since my Adderall wound up being out of pocket twice. Apparently my insurance doesn't seem to think they need to help pay for it, and at the time my last two purchases I didn't have the time or energy to argue.
I'm actually not sure WHO I call to talk to about getting them to pick up their part of the tab on this one. My psychiatrist gave me a card that will get me 50% off until the end of the year, though, so that will at least give me time to sort it out with them if they do wind up stiffing us. :D
First world problems, amirite?
As for tonsillitis, yick is my well thought out and wordy response. I'm sorry to hear that happened. :[
Haha...all joking aside..I have to admire how you keep trudging through life despite all the shit it throws at you. My hat's off to you, hon, and here's top hoping that your eyes get better fast, and life smooths out for you for a little while. Much love. <3
Maybe it's all the venting I do -- I sound angry but it's just how I keep cool about life in general! :D
Having some issues with docs too. Thinking to change my dentist because i have the feeling that he is just interested in my money not on my healthyness of my teeth. well I hope everything's turning out well for you and if you need a helping hand dont hesitate to contact me. :3
And yeah, our neuropathways really love to be unpredictable. :D
So far on the Vyvanse (first day, only an hour or two of effect) it's a lot milder but I can see that it's similar. Not quite feeling the same intense drive in any particular direction but I can see how, on a good day (good sleep, generally healthy) this will work.
If the dosage winds up being too low I'll tell Dr. Brown and ask her to bump me up to 50mg from 40mg. If I can only barely tell a difference between this dosage and regular me, it's not going to be worth $160 a month. :/
I think I'll get used to it. Only thing is I had a little light nausea for the first hour or so, a little scary. All in all it seems to definitely fit the "more on an even keel" assessment.
Also glad you have a much better psychiatrist! :D Seems like things are improving at a good rate for you. Here's to them continuing to do so!
I'm sure my eyes will go anyway, sometime soon, but I don't really know a way around it... I look at monitors all day, every day. I try to take breaks but I don't know how much it will really help in the long run...
Well, at least you can look outside now. Only have to do it every twenty minutes to help your eyes. I used to have difictulty with bright sunlight before I started wearing glasses. I don't even need sunglasses a lot of the time now. I think the fact that my glasses block UV helps somehow. Or maybe they're less strained overall, so they don't get as upset from bright light. I find myself putting them on whenever I'm driving during the day so that my eyes are more comfortable in the sun.
:embarassed:
The sweats are some exotic poly blend. They're for running and are new. (They're actually too baggy for running and I run in tights, I bought them for bumming around the house in, during our impending winter.) They have also already ripped a seam and are going back as soon as I don't forget to throw them in the car on my way to work.
We've been using the detergent for four or five months, now, so I don't think that's it. It is fragrence free, as my roommate is a big game hunter and I think he'd get rashes from a fragrenced detergent (he actually has a long list of one-time allergies - he used to constantly carry packaged syringes loaded with adrenaline - and a not short list of current allergies, so it wouldn't surprise me).
It's probably the bath soap.
Getting help is expensive...
I don't know if a counselor would be any cheaper -- they can't prescribe meds but could still help if you're really desperate for depression help. But my counselor and psychiatrist both cost the same amount because of my insurance. I imagine my counselor would cost a lot less than my psychiatrist out of pocket, but...
I honestly don't know. If I weren't married I wouldn't know the first thing about going out and buying insurance for myself. I'm self-employed, so I've never known what the hell you're supposed to do in this situation.