Actually, I should be fine, but the last few days I often find myself here, as I obviously worse off. I do not know why. I do not know what I should change. My Christmas Avatars go well, it seems everyone is happy .... But .... how come I can not believe it still. I have a feeling I only get the praise because I give away something, and inside they think the drawings are just as shit. No idea. I have to make this Christmas a few avatars and soon there is a Fur Meet in Freiburg, so maybe it will go up again.

Incidentally, I have pretty scared what the future holds, if not too much because I've done, but on the other hand, I can not just turn around, I have to try ... or I throw my life long before such a coward I've been yet.