Someone I cut off all contact with has been using mutual friends to try and speak to me. Furthermore I can't seem to properly express why I don't want to speak to him anymore.

I feel unsafe, and I'm sick of it. I feel small and I don't want to anymore. I don't like hurting, and I don't want anyone in my life who causes this hurt.

I don't want to do this. Sometimes hard decisions have to be made, for your own wellbeing. I've made one and I wish it could just be accepted.