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Sometimes life is funny that way.
14 years ago
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I dunno. Maybe I'm just a little too happy today. Cheap nachos always make me happy.
But I've just been thinking about how life works.
Like how much it sucks ass, but somehow, it gets a little better.
Kind of like that time my family couldn't afford food. So our kitchen was empty and my mom had to figure out how to feed a house of six people off of a bag of flour, a gallon of milk, and a box of spaghetti every week. That was also the month that are car was repossessed.
And then my grandfather died. My mother was extremely depressed. But at the same time, the money she inherited put us back on our feet. It's been nearly a year since that happened and we're just fine.
And my depression. I had to go through a few years worth of shit.
And then I finally gave in and spewed my guts to my mom and the greatest friend I could ever hope for. Albeit a little awkward for her, she's so supporting and she's honestly one of the reasons that I'm not dangerous to myself as much as I used to be. And through that friend, I found another- one who's going through the exact same thing. And I just couldn't be more thankful for the support.
Life just had a weird way of working, I guess.
idk man.
It's just one of those days.
But I've just been thinking about how life works.
Like how much it sucks ass, but somehow, it gets a little better.
Kind of like that time my family couldn't afford food. So our kitchen was empty and my mom had to figure out how to feed a house of six people off of a bag of flour, a gallon of milk, and a box of spaghetti every week. That was also the month that are car was repossessed.
And then my grandfather died. My mother was extremely depressed. But at the same time, the money she inherited put us back on our feet. It's been nearly a year since that happened and we're just fine.
And my depression. I had to go through a few years worth of shit.
And then I finally gave in and spewed my guts to my mom and the greatest friend I could ever hope for. Albeit a little awkward for her, she's so supporting and she's honestly one of the reasons that I'm not dangerous to myself as much as I used to be. And through that friend, I found another- one who's going through the exact same thing. And I just couldn't be more thankful for the support.
Life just had a weird way of working, I guess.
idk man.
It's just one of those days.
I feel like it's a pretty decent snapshot of how bizarre life can be.
And a good reminder to stick around to see what else it has in store.
It's no secret that I was a depressed fucking kid my entire childhood.
My preteen/early teen years were even worse.
But as soon as I got out of and away from what is now my past,
My life took a turn towards impossibly awesome.
And while everything seemed to go wrong back in the day,
Everything seems to be going right in my present and forseeable future.
And to think that I ever considered ending my life because the light at the end of the tunnel was too far off for me to see.
Also, hi. Ignore me. You don't know me. I just seem to be in a "comment on EVERYTHING that even remotely inspires me" mood right now.
I completely understand.
I was an elementary school fuck-up on Prozac.
idk man.
I'm just sick and tired of constant shit- figured I'd give optimism a try.
And I totally appreciate the comment- it's super cool to hear that you're not alone, y'know?
You're wonderful. Optimism is another step to healing, though it's a step that's really hard to get to, and really hard to accept.
I know it's been hard for me and it hasn't always stuck, but I think that if anyone deserves a break, it's definitely you.
Guh I want to watch "It's a wonderful life" with you sometime. It'd be appropriate for us. :'c
ditto to you too, steely. Every single last bit of it.
;m;
I've never seen that movie.
We should watch it at the exact same time and skype and pretend we're watching it together.
NEXT WEEK?
CAN IT BE A DATE??
I'm going to be with family then. I have to go to my dad's.
Not till 2012
Shdhsjjssd
THEN it's a date. ;w;
You have netflix??