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.. 2012 and another trip around the sun
13 years ago
Welcome to Balto's Journal
2011 has probably been the worse year for me ever. I've had to walk alot of dark roads on my own this year. It's hard when you don't have much of a support structure. Perhaps it should have been a sign on how things would end up this year by how it all began. I really don't know what 2012 will hold but I'm hoping things will change, tho I often feel 2012 will just hold more of the same.
Recently I've been feeling the need to hit the reset button once again in my life. I can usually tell when it's time when i start to find myself once more on the outside looking in and once familar faces become distant memories. Having seen the handwriting on the wall (again) I think I'm there now. Tho contrary to popular belief I blame myself though. I sorta suck at relationships So if I've managed to piss people off (and I'm sure I have) I can only say I'm sorry. I just wanted to make that public so that I could set the record straight before I proceed. Perhaps a new start will help. (I'm not going anywhere, I just mean I need to remove or start over with some things) Theres not much left to hold onto anymore.
This song always makes me think about my life and i think sums up how I've been feeling about things lately. Bonus points to who ever can guess where this song is from.
"A New World"
There's a ship sailing out tonight
men and women against the cold
holding each other tight
for a dream yet to unfold
As the shore line fades to black
and you're never going back
There's a new world
There's a ship sailing out to sea
men and women longing to be free
holding in each other's hearts
the promise of a brand new start
And for those we leave behind
you'll be always on our minds
in the new world
But how
will I ever find it?
And how
will I know it when I do?
Been down so many roads before
can't find my way no more
But in the new world...?
There's a ship out there tonight
so close I can feel you near
the time for you and me is right
as we cross the new frontier
And for those we leave behind
you'll be always on our mind
in the new world
How
will I ever find it?
And how
will I know it when I do?
Been down so many roads before
can't find my way no more
But in a new world...?
Recently I've been feeling the need to hit the reset button once again in my life. I can usually tell when it's time when i start to find myself once more on the outside looking in and once familar faces become distant memories. Having seen the handwriting on the wall (again) I think I'm there now. Tho contrary to popular belief I blame myself though. I sorta suck at relationships So if I've managed to piss people off (and I'm sure I have) I can only say I'm sorry. I just wanted to make that public so that I could set the record straight before I proceed. Perhaps a new start will help. (I'm not going anywhere, I just mean I need to remove or start over with some things) Theres not much left to hold onto anymore.
This song always makes me think about my life and i think sums up how I've been feeling about things lately. Bonus points to who ever can guess where this song is from.
"A New World"
There's a ship sailing out tonight
men and women against the cold
holding each other tight
for a dream yet to unfold
As the shore line fades to black
and you're never going back
There's a new world
There's a ship sailing out to sea
men and women longing to be free
holding in each other's hearts
the promise of a brand new start
And for those we leave behind
you'll be always on our minds
in the new world
But how
will I ever find it?
And how
will I know it when I do?
Been down so many roads before
can't find my way no more
But in the new world...?
There's a ship out there tonight
so close I can feel you near
the time for you and me is right
as we cross the new frontier
And for those we leave behind
you'll be always on our mind
in the new world
How
will I ever find it?
And how
will I know it when I do?
Been down so many roads before
can't find my way no more
But in a new world...?
But, hear is to hoping for a much better year for us both!
I hope you know that I'll always be there for you, though, whatever you need. You're one of my best friends, and while this year has been rough, I'm looking forward to things getting better, and getting back to how they used to be.
Hopefully I can visit in a few days if you're around. :)
I hope things go better for you next year and I'm always up for a chat if you would like, hope to see you around!